niav

Where to start today? I've weathered a great deal of mini-mental breakdowns in the past week. Today has been the very first day of sunshine in my world. Most importantly, Jason and I have settled things, relief.

I made him choose between us. He chose me on the spot. There's so much more to tell, but I'm exhausted of it. I'd rather just wait a bit so I might begin healing my bruised emotions before unleashing all the gruesome details. He still loves me, and chooses me, I am still intact, and that's all that matters at this moment.

I do want to thank all of you for your comments, your support, and advice. I've tried to get to everyone to thank them individually, but I havn't been in the best state of mind recently so this will have to do if I've overlooked you. But, you are greatly appreciated.

One last thing (thanks to Stardust) Just incase things don't work out between us in the future, I've decided I'm going to mail-order-bride myself to a German man. Why, you might ask? Hehehe. I learned that since Germany's population is in recess, the government tributes money to families based on how many childeren they have. All I'd have to do is pop out 5 lil kids and be paid enough to retire for life! Schooling is free there, even through college. If one ends up unemployed they are also give 2 years pull pay to get another job. Abortions are not based on moral-they are illegal to those who can afford to raise children, and paid for by the gov't for those in poverty. One may claim to be 'stressed' and be treated to a 3 week spa treatment all expenses paid. Plus, my hubby wouldn't know englifh so I wouldn't have to put up with any crap! Although I am just kidding, the idea really doesn't seem too bad...

.:~*Niav*~:.