nexusdog

So last nights LAN party was, for me, a wash out. A combination of lack of co-ordination, only 6 people, no external internet connection and above all, my fucking back as usual, meant that I wasn't a happy person.

All the clocks are fcuked cos of DST, so I'm screwed over what time I should think it should be. Oh, and my back is even...
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06.20 Just decided. She's gonna get Karma'd. I don't care if fear dictated her actions, they were inexcusable and she treated me with contempt, like a complete cunt.

So I've spent the best part of four months, with the wreckage of my former life in tatters around me, swamped out by thoughts of Her and how much I love her still and how angry I've...
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I've just had a nice day.

Odd really, cos I've not really done much other than talk to someone. Sometimes it's hard work because they seem to find it hard to open up and be themselves.Or perhaps they're just naturally reticent or introverted - I don't know that much about them yet to understand them fully.

What's peculiar is the misunderstandings that have happened in...
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Zoe had a sleep over last night for the first time in a months due to my illness. Still hard work, but it was great having her with me again. Just watching her sleep, it's beautiful to see her at peace.

Ex just dropped son off, now both kids busy into Cbeebies and I am drifting into sleep again, not good but I'll manage I...
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Sleep! Finally, some meds that are actually helping me! Mind you, still doing something like 4 hours on, 4 off but at least I'm actually sleeping.

Other meds must be kicking in because there's nothing deep and meaningful to report. Nothing. Nada. No angst or shit like that, I'm just bored and putting off doing the dishes. Even my leg is managable.... the pain still...
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