Status Groggy
Condition Ostrasized
Diazepan... great stuff
Supposed to help with anxiety and pain. Still got the sodding pain, but boy, did it knock me out! Just woke up and feeling distinctly bizarre and tired and stuff. Need about 3 days to come to at this rate. Nice... big grin. let's hope it permeates all over, I dould co with a gallf
Only took me the best part of 2 hours to figure out if all my limbs were in the right places, unlike my head (never had any complaints though...fnar)
I was laughing for the first time in ages tonight. So much so, I was crying. Felt bloody good. I want more, lots more. I want life. And possibly valium. And a decent Thai yellow curry chicken, sleep and no more bad leg. That's for starters.
Someone to hold and be tactile with and be close to would be nice as well but still to wary of women now after last shitty relationship - the feeling of being treated like meat makes me feel yuk to say the least. Can't see that changing any time soon.
CPN appt, take 2 tomorrow. CBT, fingers crossed, on the cards - think I may slightly be overdue for some re-educating in the thinking department. Hopeful, but wary.
No music tonight, bar Dario G - Sunchyme, or possibly Zoe - Sunshine on a rainy day (makes my soul, makes my soul, trip, trip, trip away....), but that's cos my little girl is Zoe as well.
My kids are cute. I love them, I wish I could more for them right now.
Pucker up, I wanna snog!
UPDATE... Diazepam IS Valium. WOOOOOOOOT! Cool! only 5mg, but hey, who's complaining - I'm in the big league now! LOL
Condition Ostrasized
Diazepan... great stuff

Only took me the best part of 2 hours to figure out if all my limbs were in the right places, unlike my head (never had any complaints though...fnar)
I was laughing for the first time in ages tonight. So much so, I was crying. Felt bloody good. I want more, lots more. I want life. And possibly valium. And a decent Thai yellow curry chicken, sleep and no more bad leg. That's for starters.
Someone to hold and be tactile with and be close to would be nice as well but still to wary of women now after last shitty relationship - the feeling of being treated like meat makes me feel yuk to say the least. Can't see that changing any time soon.
CPN appt, take 2 tomorrow. CBT, fingers crossed, on the cards - think I may slightly be overdue for some re-educating in the thinking department. Hopeful, but wary.
No music tonight, bar Dario G - Sunchyme, or possibly Zoe - Sunshine on a rainy day (makes my soul, makes my soul, trip, trip, trip away....), but that's cos my little girl is Zoe as well.
My kids are cute. I love them, I wish I could more for them right now.

Pucker up, I wanna snog!

UPDATE... Diazepam IS Valium. WOOOOOOOOT! Cool! only 5mg, but hey, who's complaining - I'm in the big league now! LOL
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nexusdog:
I'll have to ask doc next time! trouble is, it's hit me now and I' can't drive if it keeps up.... nice though it is to sleep, I now need to get the hell out of the house and into the big scarey world again
Dunno why I aint be given valium, fancy the trip... maybe they want to keep me begging for more... med dealers, eh? lol
You're still hot



fenstar:
i got valium from a friend, not a doctor, quacks are useless with giving you anything that might be of use!!!!
