nexttuesday

I'm trying to mentally preparing myself for something that will be happening probably sooner than later. Can't talk about it yet, but I'm really not happy about it and it's going to be a real test for me. I wish I could just fast forward to it being all over and get back to normal life with my wonderful man. It's becoming harder for me not to stress over it, yet I know stressing is pointless since there is nothing I can do to change it.

I thought something was gonna happen to make it a little less hard, but that turned out to be a bust. I should know better than to count on other people. You can only count on yourself to get through tough spots in life. Sure, there might be people rooting you on, but you gotta put on your big boy pants and trudge through till life stabilizes again.

Sorry if this leaves you scratching your head. I just needed to type it out, well as much as I could. Blah.