A letter to my advisor, regarding deadlines and my epic poem...
Hello Nancy,
Sorry you havent heard from me in a while. Ive been very incognito, very much swimming in this book, and very, very much at its mercy. The courtship took a long time, lots of dancing around it, research, playing, experimenting, trying to make it mine. I have definitely broken the barrier and gotten into the story, the pages are dropping away (at last). Ive broken an important milestone too, as Ive gotten over all my little hang-ups on writing a book-length work, and seem able to do it now.
But every step I take, this thing gets a little more life and will and it walks on its own and it grows, becomes larger and more ambitious. For example, the form Ive given this epic (as weve previously discussed) is a series of main chapters (books) that are in a chaotic, poetic form, a dialogue between the priestess (who now, in a roundabout way, has your namesake) and the muse who shes summoned (and who she cannot controlI guess their relationship was an unintentional prophecy of what my relationship to this book would be). In-between these chapters (dealing with ritual and the spirit world) are prose chapters (mostly dealing with the mundane world), which Im calling interludes that indirectly touch back on the themes of the main plotline. Thus, the story moves in a spiral.
Well, back to my example, I set out to write an introductory interlude, basically, explaining how in Voodoo (Vodou), history is told by telling little stories again and again, in a spiral basically, just a little interlude to introduce the following interludes. But it changed, took on a will of its own, and, quite unintentionally, I wrote this chapter on the shape of the universe and time and how everything is made of spirals, how shamans knew of the double-helix (through hallucinations with the spiraling ayahusaca vine) thousands of years before scientists did, and suddenly.my whole epic is becoming this intricate spiral, made of tiny spirals, of repeating sounds and themes and motifs
Its in control and it is bigger and smarter than me.
This bodes well for the work itselfthe writing is going GREAT! But its bad for earthly deadlines. Im now into about 75+ pages of actual text (and many, many, files and pages of notes and characters)but I think this monster will easily top 300 pages by the time I get to the ending I want (and I know the last sentenceits the same as the first sentencespirals and all that).
I cant get there by the deadline of next week.
SoI have two options. I think I can easily, in this semester, get to the amount of work that would be deemed necessary to complete a thesiseven if the story itself is not at the end. I think, by the deadline next week, Ill be somewhere over a hundred pages completing the first main arc of the plot (the priestess discovering the identity of our tattered hero, a fallen angel, and convincing him to go into the Underworld to rescue a lost soul). Maybe I could nip it off here, find a stopping point, with the hint of further books (like Dantes three epics).
Would this work?
Orthere is the option of another semester (I keep pulling semesters out of my pocketssleight of hand and time). I know, now that I have a grasp of the form of this book and the end is in site and the pages are falling away, that Id be done with the WHOLE plot by then (turning in the book to you by the end of December/beginning of January), with quite a nice thesis to put on the rack in the archives of the library.
The advantage to the first option is being graduated and being sent on my way into the world (and I can write the rest of the book(s) on my own).
The advantage to the second option is finishing this thing (while its all on my mindso heavy!) under the watch and aegis of you, the program, and my fellow writers here in Springfield. For example, Im in Joannas creative writing class and its served as an invaluable testing ground for the first chapters of the story and making sure all the experimental things Im doing actually make sense to an audience.
Those are the options I think I can manage. What do you think?
take care,
Joshua
PS Thank you for mentoring me through this the last few years (not to mention the years before in Eureka). I appreciate it more than I can write out in literal sentencesthank God I have metaphors and stories to fill in the gaps.
Hello Nancy,
Sorry you havent heard from me in a while. Ive been very incognito, very much swimming in this book, and very, very much at its mercy. The courtship took a long time, lots of dancing around it, research, playing, experimenting, trying to make it mine. I have definitely broken the barrier and gotten into the story, the pages are dropping away (at last). Ive broken an important milestone too, as Ive gotten over all my little hang-ups on writing a book-length work, and seem able to do it now.
But every step I take, this thing gets a little more life and will and it walks on its own and it grows, becomes larger and more ambitious. For example, the form Ive given this epic (as weve previously discussed) is a series of main chapters (books) that are in a chaotic, poetic form, a dialogue between the priestess (who now, in a roundabout way, has your namesake) and the muse who shes summoned (and who she cannot controlI guess their relationship was an unintentional prophecy of what my relationship to this book would be). In-between these chapters (dealing with ritual and the spirit world) are prose chapters (mostly dealing with the mundane world), which Im calling interludes that indirectly touch back on the themes of the main plotline. Thus, the story moves in a spiral.
Well, back to my example, I set out to write an introductory interlude, basically, explaining how in Voodoo (Vodou), history is told by telling little stories again and again, in a spiral basically, just a little interlude to introduce the following interludes. But it changed, took on a will of its own, and, quite unintentionally, I wrote this chapter on the shape of the universe and time and how everything is made of spirals, how shamans knew of the double-helix (through hallucinations with the spiraling ayahusaca vine) thousands of years before scientists did, and suddenly.my whole epic is becoming this intricate spiral, made of tiny spirals, of repeating sounds and themes and motifs
Its in control and it is bigger and smarter than me.
This bodes well for the work itselfthe writing is going GREAT! But its bad for earthly deadlines. Im now into about 75+ pages of actual text (and many, many, files and pages of notes and characters)but I think this monster will easily top 300 pages by the time I get to the ending I want (and I know the last sentenceits the same as the first sentencespirals and all that).
I cant get there by the deadline of next week.
SoI have two options. I think I can easily, in this semester, get to the amount of work that would be deemed necessary to complete a thesiseven if the story itself is not at the end. I think, by the deadline next week, Ill be somewhere over a hundred pages completing the first main arc of the plot (the priestess discovering the identity of our tattered hero, a fallen angel, and convincing him to go into the Underworld to rescue a lost soul). Maybe I could nip it off here, find a stopping point, with the hint of further books (like Dantes three epics).
Would this work?
Orthere is the option of another semester (I keep pulling semesters out of my pocketssleight of hand and time). I know, now that I have a grasp of the form of this book and the end is in site and the pages are falling away, that Id be done with the WHOLE plot by then (turning in the book to you by the end of December/beginning of January), with quite a nice thesis to put on the rack in the archives of the library.
The advantage to the first option is being graduated and being sent on my way into the world (and I can write the rest of the book(s) on my own).
The advantage to the second option is finishing this thing (while its all on my mindso heavy!) under the watch and aegis of you, the program, and my fellow writers here in Springfield. For example, Im in Joannas creative writing class and its served as an invaluable testing ground for the first chapters of the story and making sure all the experimental things Im doing actually make sense to an audience.
Those are the options I think I can manage. What do you think?
take care,
Joshua
PS Thank you for mentoring me through this the last few years (not to mention the years before in Eureka). I appreciate it more than I can write out in literal sentencesthank God I have metaphors and stories to fill in the gaps.
First of all, lay off the caffeine already. Even Coleridge took a break from the opium every once in a while. You must start sleeping at normal hours!
Second of all, you rock. Not just because you are a gifted writer, but because you sent me this letter hand-written, which means I can get a hefty price for it when I auction it off at Barney's after you are awarded the Pulitzer Prize. ka-ching!
Love and Rockets,
Nancy
ps: Don't forget to inscribe a special thank you to that chic in Massachusetts in the hardcover edition