Prismatic is the word I use to described... all the feeling that I have hiding here for you inside, I don't know how many times that I wish that I wish I could hold you, I don't know how many times I wish I would have told you, I don't know many times I wish I could turn you into someone else who could cherish me I as much as I cherish you... (excerpt from cherish by The Association, a song that plays itself in my head, sneaking through the brain creases)