I'm still in between Columbus and Cleveland. Spending over 100 bucks a week on gasoline. I have a job in Cleveland now, so I hope to stay put in that city until my lease is up.
I've been single for nearly two months now. My ex boyfriend is already in a hot and heavy relationship with a blonde haired lady that bares an uncanny resemblance to his younger sister (a touch disturbing). I found out through facebook photos, of course. I messaged with the lady to torture myself further. She told me, 'he's a great guy. I'm treating him right for you'. In that moment I wished so badly to reach my arm through the computer screen and slap the lousy broad. I cried and felt this immense feeling of anger for two consecutive hours after discovering this information. I felt so lousy, so easily replaced. However, on the other side of the coin, and I realize now that we really weren't meant for each other. The purpose of that relationship was to teach me the things I've learned. I've gained so much experience, and stories from the year of knowing him. I like the movie, Harold and Maude, near the end, Harold tells Maude, "I love you." Maude replies, "Oh, Harold, that's wonderful. Go out and love some more."
I don't have any issues with the two of them now. Acting jealous, or bitter is only a sign of selfishness. I want so much for everyone in this world to live happily. I want everyone to experience love.
I'm ready for my next chapter. I don't think I will date for a while, but you really never know what to expect. (that's one of the beautiful things about life)
I live in the moment these days. I'm so thankful for my wonderful friends who have put up with me when I was at one of the worst times of my life. I had a lot hit me at once, broken relationships, my father entering the hospital (The day before we split [he chose to party instead of comforting me; and hasn't even bothered to ask if my father is alright since]) and more bad luck that I wont delve into.
++ALSO++ thank you so much for all of your comments and messages. All of you have helped me so much.++
My skin is getting a lot thicker. I can handle difficult situations in a much more mature manner now. I have a boat load of stories to share-
I've been single for nearly two months now. My ex boyfriend is already in a hot and heavy relationship with a blonde haired lady that bares an uncanny resemblance to his younger sister (a touch disturbing). I found out through facebook photos, of course. I messaged with the lady to torture myself further. She told me, 'he's a great guy. I'm treating him right for you'. In that moment I wished so badly to reach my arm through the computer screen and slap the lousy broad. I cried and felt this immense feeling of anger for two consecutive hours after discovering this information. I felt so lousy, so easily replaced. However, on the other side of the coin, and I realize now that we really weren't meant for each other. The purpose of that relationship was to teach me the things I've learned. I've gained so much experience, and stories from the year of knowing him. I like the movie, Harold and Maude, near the end, Harold tells Maude, "I love you." Maude replies, "Oh, Harold, that's wonderful. Go out and love some more."
I don't have any issues with the two of them now. Acting jealous, or bitter is only a sign of selfishness. I want so much for everyone in this world to live happily. I want everyone to experience love.
I'm ready for my next chapter. I don't think I will date for a while, but you really never know what to expect. (that's one of the beautiful things about life)
I live in the moment these days. I'm so thankful for my wonderful friends who have put up with me when I was at one of the worst times of my life. I had a lot hit me at once, broken relationships, my father entering the hospital (The day before we split [he chose to party instead of comforting me; and hasn't even bothered to ask if my father is alright since]) and more bad luck that I wont delve into.
++ALSO++ thank you so much for all of your comments and messages. All of you have helped me so much.++
My skin is getting a lot thicker. I can handle difficult situations in a much more mature manner now. I have a boat load of stories to share-
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Hopefully there will not be airfare taxes lol.
Also about the whole relationship thing, I think you are doing mightily on overcoming the obsticle dear Nessy.
Don't ever put yourself down too much, because I bet inside you are worth a lot more than what the ex thought you were worth. It's his mistake for not realizing what he had, jumping to the next pretty face he seen proved his immaturity. I'm glad you don't walk around with a 357. Magnum because I'm sure you've would have gotten an itchy trigger finger lmao. Just kidding around.
It's good to see you cope very well and go at live with a smile and positive outlook. For that You are not only beautiful on the outside, but magnificent on the inside. No one can take that from you.
cheers lovely lady
-SMK