nerveagents

So last night was a disaster. I was really excited to see this show...I had been for probably a couple of months. I asked my girlfriend to come along with me to go see it...so we could spend some time with each other. Well I guess she felt that since she didn't really want to be there that she could totally make the whole time miserable for me. First off she wouldn't say a word, or infact even look at me, yeah she'd talk to her friend that we saw their, but she wouldn't talk to me. The whole night she just sat in the back of the Crystall Ballroom with a pissed off look...I guess to make me feel bad?? I did get to see From Ashes Rise, but it just wasn't the same...I couldn't enjoy it as much as I would have liked to. I guess I just don't understand it....I'm ALWAYS willing to do things that she wants to do....go to the mall, go to denny's until 1 am on a work night, go to her stupid ex-boyfriends shows that she always wants to go to..and I don't throw a fit, and more often than not I pay for the whole thing. She didn't have to pay one red cent last night, and she still couldn't just let me enjoy myself. She had to make me feel bad for wanting to have fun....and then when I told her what she was doing wasn't fair she said something like "Why do you make me feel bad?" LIKE I'M THE ONE WHO DID ANYTHING. If she feels bad after I tell her how her action made me feel....than is it really me who made her feel bad...or herself. Not to mention the fit she threw on Thursday when I wanted to go to play video games for 15 minutes. She blew up...wouldn't even talk to me, but she'd talk to her friend that was with us. I'm sick of being treated like this. I think that I'm a farely nice guy, and any girl I've been with can tell you that I will do anything to make them happy. So as the story goes, I didn't get to even see the Subhumans....I just took her home insted....thats how bad she was acting. so bad that it made me want to miss the Subhumans. It's not like I was asking for much...or that we even really do anything I enjoy. Maybe once or twice a week we'll go record shopping or something, but other than that we do anything and everything she wants to do. I'm sick of being treated like a piece of shit, when I treat her like the world.
I'm sure most of you don't know, but since December 20th, I've been commuting back and forth from Salem, OR to Vancouver, Wa. It's about an hour to an hour and a half drive. Anyways I did this because I wanted to be able to live with this girl and be close to her....so I was willing to wake up at 6 in the morning, shower, and drive an hour or so to work, then work for 9 hours and drive an hour back. If it were me, I would be happy and almost feel bad that someone would do that just to be with me....well with her I would do that and more ofter than not I would come home to a hostile house...one where she wouldn't talk to me, answer me, or even look at me. I honestly did not do a god damn thing and I was treated like this for no reason.