nephthys

hey everyone!! alas the time has come for me to properly update.... or at least allowed me a few minutes to breathe.
With school, work and christmas chaos... i'm pretty sure most of you understand how i'm feeling. Last week I nearly had a panic attack in Pier 1. For real. It was a bad day to begin with... a thursday none the less. I had been welding all morning and ws just fed up, so i ditched my afternoon class and got high with one of my classmates... and decided that i should go shoe shopping-it always cheers me up.. i'm such a girl eh? well anyways i went to four shoe stores. nothing. not a god damn shoe intregued me. and thats fucked up. i'm all about the shoes and usually something sparks my interest. but that day? no. so, my depression worstened, i decided to go christmas shopping for my family, figured that shopping for other people might be easier and more fulfilling.
with all the people rushing, and the scary drivers, and the children screaming, and their panicking mothers ignoring their needs while they scrounged the bargain racks for gifts... the annoying jazzy christmas music in the background, the lights.... i almost broke down and screamed. I actually had problems breathing for a minute.
so i went home.
Oh, and did i mention that in my shenanigans I lost my truck? i did mention i was completely messed up right? lol
Anyways, life's been okay since then. As youknow my birthday was a week or so ago... Had an amazing weekend. Connected with CoolSpot which hadn't happened in nearly half a year... which, when ya think about it.. is really odd, i missed you!! lol . It was my friend Terry's 19th birthday that night so we went to Habanos. It was a good time! PrinceSpringer graced me with his fabulous presence, hun, you are too amazing! lol
That weekend was great, and for the most part, i remembr most of it.
Also, I started working at Boston Pizza in MJ... i know too many people that work there, and so far its just too much fun! lol
Other than that I've just been schooling, and trying to not get into TOO much trouble.... tho a newfound troublemaker has made his way into my life. I think I have intregued him enough to make him sign up for SG... so thats exciting!! He's such a stoner... and he's SO easy to freak out, its awesome. I think my free access to drugs may eventually lead to some kind of problem.... i'm goin to try to isolate my usage to weekends... and mondays. lol
and not to divulge too much information on my private life? i'm crazy infatuated. he's amazing and i luv him.
ok so i guess thats it!
NO!! its not!!!!
WARNING
theres some creepo apparently using his buddy's SG account, he recently added me to his msn, his email is madaboutsg@hotmail.it. all he msgs me for is to "help him" get off. its creepy and disgusting. it was one of the first things he said, not "hey, i'm so and so from blahblah place...whats up?" it was blatant, that was all he wanted. I said no, and inquired about who he was and what his sg name was, all he said was that he was using a friends account. I told him that was disapointing, and he said "so r u" and left. what a fucking asshole! so yeah. just a heads up, tho i'm sure i'm not the only one who's experienced this mediocrity of society.
anyways I need to chat with
Oracle so i'll talk to you guys later!

miss you!
~*N*~

edited to add:
OH and my instructor has been having the worst slip ups lately! lol
well last week we were welding... and my weld bead was getting rather wide.... or "fat"... so my instructor was watching me, and he says "good! but... you're getting a little fat." and of course i knew EXACTLY what he meant... but i acted all shocked and appauled... and made him all awkward. then later i was slacking and he asks me how i'm doin, and i said "well, i was great til you told me i ws getting fat..." in a completely believeable hurt tone, and i made him feel bad.... lol
then today.... lol i got my welds back from yesterday (cuz he marked them) and he scribbled little comments on them (like what to improve etc) and on one of them he wrote "you are hot!!!", because my temp was too high on my welder.... and it was affecting my welds.... and i fully understood what he meant... but anyways, later he's talking to me and making sure i picked up my projects, and he says something along the lines of "your temp is a little high-did you get my note?" and i'm like " (insert fake awkwardness here)... yeah...(avoiding eye contact)" and i show it to him and then he's all awkward like "OH!! I guess that wasn't a good thing to write on there eh?" so its just been a gong show... lol anyways thats it! I'm neglecting Oracle so i have to go for REAL this time!!
bye!