It has been a day of insight and yet one of complete confusion. Having just returned from a lecture given by 6 alumni (3 of which were formerly my classmates, but that is another story) I have come to understand at least a couple of things about what I am indeed supposed to do. Not necessarily from instruction, but from extrapolation of their shared experiences over mine and vice versa. At the same time I still have no specific practical ideas about how to implement this plan. I will shortly have immediate actions to work toward it, but for the moment I am still uneasy and in a daze. If only there were a pill or a shot I could take or even something I could sniff or inhale or drink... SOMETHING to keep me diligent and focused, motivated and energetic, determined and resolute. Alas, no such magic bullet exists.
kizmet:
wow...that little birdy reminds me of an old run down wind up toy....thanks doll! 
hotcurry:
oh, I don't know about that. It's just raining/ snowing all over and too many people are at home at their computers. 