neon

today is the worst day in the history of bad days. or at least it feels that way right now.

catherien's parents showed up in NY. only her mom was supposed to come. and they basically kidnapped her and brought her back to richmond. they withdrew her from school. they packed a couple of bags for her. all the rest of her stuff [includinng her ferrets] is back in NY with i'm sure a very confused, pissed off marcos [her roommate]. they told her that they'd like to put her in a mental institution [but they need her consent for that]. they want her back on medication. they want her to not associate with any of her friends b/c we're all bad. especially me. they blamed almost everything on me. i should have knows something was up when her dad showed up at my house the other day. appearantly he told my parents to try and keep me in richmond b/c catherine and i are bad for eachother and we shouldn't be around eachother. and my dad told him that even if he wanted to controll me that he couldn't. and yes thid does directly affect me. catherine's my soul mate. they can't separate us. nothing in this world can come between us. neither of us knows what's happening right now. i did get to see her for a little while tonight. she refused to eat any food that's not brought to her by me. i brought her sushi, and a peach muffin, and apple strudel and a cinnamon swirl and cranberry juice. and a flower. i don't know what else to say...... i just want to not think for a while. this is waaay too much for me to deal with at this moment. along with some other stuff.

i'll keep telling myself that everything will be alright. everything will work out......