nellichaos

My productivity level for the day is almost at absolute zero. I just can't find a way to get myself motivated.
Generally, I pride myself in the fact that it takes me the least ammount of time of anyone on our management staff to finish monday morning paperwork, but right now I have mabye a quarter of what I need to get done finished. Typically, I am done at this point and off doing something more productive. Today though, I just don't care. Don't care, don't care, don't care. I actually just browsed through the forty odd pages of the transappreciation thread on the sexuality board. I feel like this week isn't going to go smoothly. Every morning, it gets harder and harder to get up and motivated. It's especially diffacult when I am at Ryan's. His general irresponsibility sometimes makes me want to slack off a little too. I should be appreciative of my parents and the work ethic that they instilled in me, otherwise I wouldn't be here right now, I'd still be sleeping.

Speaking of work ethic, my friend Danielle, who I got a job, is no longer employeed. She managed to show up for two non-consecutive days of the five she was scheduled. One day, she called me to tell me that she couldn't make it. The other two days, she is more or less unaccounted for. I am finding it really hard to not hold it against her personally. I mean, I don't like my job but I try to take it seriously. In the three years I've been here, I have never reccomended someone for a job. The one time that I do, the person fucks off and doesn't show. I know that it's not my fault that she didn't show but I still can't help but feel like it reflects negatively on me. The best part of all this is, she does not understand why she is no longer employeed. She says she's going to call on Tuesday morning and talk to our general manager. I would LOVE to be able to her wahatever excuses she is going to come up with.

So far today, the weather is crappy. It's raining, which mean no biking. I didn't really want to go on the Monday night ride, but it it's rainy that means that no one will go. Generally, when Ryan and people are off tearing through the streets of Columbus, I have a little extra time to myself, which I enjoy. I need to get a full night of sleep tonight, rather than staying up late talking and hanging out. I'm never going to get over this cold if I don't start to take better care of myself....or at least that's the word on the street.

I guess that I should cut this off and actually go and do some productive work so when the night manager shows up it looks like I've gotten at least SOMETHING done in the four hours that I have been here without any sort of supervision.