I have serious sleep apnea...to the point i have a machine to make sure i breathe enough at night. I don't HAVE to use it, but i can tell when i haven't...which has been the last couple of days now. Pressure behind my eyes like that feeling of sleep deprivation that comes out after two or three days...
But the dreams have been ... intense. It's funny, Before using the machine, I never remembered dreaming. I started using it, and i started dreaming but the dreams tapered off...
I stop using the machine and the dreams are back. Like my brain needed a shock to wake it up.
dunno but it's not just the dreams that are back...
the urge to begin writing again is like drug addiction. i've been outlining and building on old ideas and streamlining what only a few weeks ago was the sketch of an idea into solid foundations from which to move up and through uncertainty.
feels good to be doing something i love...
now if i could just find a job too.
But the dreams have been ... intense. It's funny, Before using the machine, I never remembered dreaming. I started using it, and i started dreaming but the dreams tapered off...
I stop using the machine and the dreams are back. Like my brain needed a shock to wake it up.
dunno but it's not just the dreams that are back...
the urge to begin writing again is like drug addiction. i've been outlining and building on old ideas and streamlining what only a few weeks ago was the sketch of an idea into solid foundations from which to move up and through uncertainty.
feels good to be doing something i love...
now if i could just find a job too.
annalee:
Oh someone gave me a book of poetry by Rumi just a few weeks ago! That is a perfect little piece you quoted for me there. That is great to hear that you're enjoying writing so much lately, a passion makes life a thousand times more meaningful.