necros

Im still pretty pissed off about the whole restaurant thing, its a pretty sensitive subject and EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends is asking about it. dont get me wrong at all I really appreciate the fact that my firiends are making sure im ok and showing interest in my problems, its a good thing. I just feel like i have such a defeatist approach to it all. its really nagging at me the fact that i did everything right and i got the chop for doing the right thing, everything by the book. *cringes*
The worst thing about it really is the fact that my ego is bruised as well. I would have loved to have been able to have walked right into another job like I was phased at all, but that is sadly not the case. Im actually struggling to find a job. all is not good and im not happy about it at all.

GOOD news tho! I got a full unconditional acceptance to dundee college for the art course i want. so im now going to be an art student in september, which is pretty cool. im pretty chuffed about that to be honest. I guess thats whats kept me gonig

*sighs* Im not sure how this summer is gonna go now. I had huge plans that I was finally gonna be able to do. for the first time ever I wasnt gonna have to worry about money or anything. and some how Im in an even worse predicament than ever. Im really worried about it all and I really dont have anyone to talk to about it. sucks so much. I think the bad thing about it all is the fact that I dont think I would be able to talk to anyone about how im feeling.

i think im in a weird place...