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Monday May 30, 2005

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work is going well thankfully..

I do have a boss with self esteem issues though, who also happens to be a control freak...

we haven't neccesarily clashed heads but there have been a couple of instances...

the result being is that i have certain personality flaws that I must keep in check now or else he and I can look forward to some very unpleasant discussions...

It is hard though, this is one job I don't want to lose just now over production issues...

I will be the first one to admit I am not the fastest designer...but I do my work...

just because he has issues from the previous designers who worked under him (who quit because of him in a span of a year by the way) didn't get certain work done in the two years they were there...

we are up to date now, and best of all...organized!

yet he still finds cause to freak out...he is a miserable man...but this was fine...until he started trying to start shit with me...

don't blame me for your incompetence of running the art department!!!!

the whole situation has left me a bit shaken...and of course I am in mortal fear of losing my job because of this guy...

I have spoken to my family about this...

where I want to just scream it out with this guy they tell me patience...just do my work, do not talk back because then I'm his ball court, and leave myself open to being written up or fired...
Do my work...and don't dwell on it...get something done and move on, and not even worry about it unless a correction is needed.


I have one comfort in all this...

it is not a coincidence that I should be working at this place at this time in my life...

I am supposed to be working for this guy right now because as it turns out I see a lot of myself in him...the way I hold grudges against people, the way I am easily offended, the way I react when I'm interrupted, the way it takes me forever to explain something, the way I take criticism too personally...

in thirty years, i could very well be this man...
and I don't want to be...

God, I have my work cut out it seems...

wish me luck

N
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
gekkeiju23:
more work?
sounds like you have enough stress.
Jul 3, 2005
gekkeiju23:
its my favorite sin. smile
Jul 9, 2005

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