ndoki

well, it looks like it's happening....

a month from now i am set to move up North...if all goes well, with a place waiting....


I've thought about this long and hard...and even now, having made a decision I am scared to death...but somehow deep inside it feels like the right decision...

i've lived in southern california for so many years...made friends, made enemies...

fell in love, fell out of love (hard)....

in short...the weight of all those memories has been keeping me from moving on the way I am supposed to...

i've come to realize that things have change,,,some for the good...others for the worst...

but things are different...completely unrecognizeable from what they were...

and I think too much on those things...i am too comforteable...

so I would rather make this move now, while i am still able to make rash decisions , and i don't have a mortgage, and kids needing my time....

I have only one regret...but even that is one con in a list of pros for doing this....

wish me luck


i will keep you posted

n

OH! and happy valentine's day...