I've been reading a lot lately since there's nothing else I really can do.
I'm either stuck at home helping my mom babysit or going to volunteer at this theatre in the costume shop.
I really enjoy it, excited to learn how to maybe make my own clothes or something from watching the pros work on costumes..you know pick up on stuff.
But anyway. Actually the reason I'm stuck babysitting is because my mom decided to take responsibility, as a favor because it's not like she's even getting paid for it and then we can split the moolah, because my other baby cousin who's three has recently been diagnosed with leukemia.
Sad story and it seems so unbelievable because even though you hear about things like this all the time it's a whole different feeling when you actually know someone going through that.
So anyway the parents are pretty much always in the hospital with the sick baby and can't take care of the little one who's only one so my mom, being the biggest sucker and warm-hearted person she is, said she'd take him.
He's sooo cute but a handful, especially since we haven't had a baby around for 9 years so our lives were pretty good with not having to change diapers and wake up in the middle of the night blah blah blah.
But here we go again and since I'm the bum who stays home I'm mommy #3..apart from the real mom and my mom. It's not that bad I guess. It just gets so routine and boring. And it's making me think twice if I really want to have kids in the future.
I feel too selfish to basically be giving up my life to children. But then again I'm only 20 so of course that's how I feel now. I guess I'll have to wait and see if the alarm ever goes off on my biological clock.
So apart from that, I've been reading which is great because I'm getting back into that habit. I was such a bookworm when I was younger. Then I got into my teens when I wanted to be like an adult in terms of going out drinking and thinking I was all mature and shit when I was actually becoming more stupid.
I keep trying to read Eragon but it doesn't do it for me. I always get distracted by some other book. So I've read Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk which I loved. I have to start reading more books by him. And now I'm reading a book called My Sister's Keeper by Jodie something..which coincidentally (or maybe not I'm not sure I just picked it out from the library we have here at home and it was one title I hadn't read before) is about a family who has a daughter with leukemia and the struggles the parents go through with each of the children.
And it makes me really sad because I wouldn't want that for the baby we're taking care of. He is family after all and since he's been with us for almost 2 months now he's kind of like another little brother.
i'm not done with it yet but almost, its so good I've barely put it down in the last 2 days.
So that's it. I just wanted to share the news about my reunion with reading because it's been a while and I've missed it even though I hadn't noticed it before. So that whole "be active and go out and play" crap they feed to kids....ehh I'd much rather read a book.
I'm either stuck at home helping my mom babysit or going to volunteer at this theatre in the costume shop.
I really enjoy it, excited to learn how to maybe make my own clothes or something from watching the pros work on costumes..you know pick up on stuff.
But anyway. Actually the reason I'm stuck babysitting is because my mom decided to take responsibility, as a favor because it's not like she's even getting paid for it and then we can split the moolah, because my other baby cousin who's three has recently been diagnosed with leukemia.
Sad story and it seems so unbelievable because even though you hear about things like this all the time it's a whole different feeling when you actually know someone going through that.
So anyway the parents are pretty much always in the hospital with the sick baby and can't take care of the little one who's only one so my mom, being the biggest sucker and warm-hearted person she is, said she'd take him.
He's sooo cute but a handful, especially since we haven't had a baby around for 9 years so our lives were pretty good with not having to change diapers and wake up in the middle of the night blah blah blah.
But here we go again and since I'm the bum who stays home I'm mommy #3..apart from the real mom and my mom. It's not that bad I guess. It just gets so routine and boring. And it's making me think twice if I really want to have kids in the future.
I feel too selfish to basically be giving up my life to children. But then again I'm only 20 so of course that's how I feel now. I guess I'll have to wait and see if the alarm ever goes off on my biological clock.
So apart from that, I've been reading which is great because I'm getting back into that habit. I was such a bookworm when I was younger. Then I got into my teens when I wanted to be like an adult in terms of going out drinking and thinking I was all mature and shit when I was actually becoming more stupid.
I keep trying to read Eragon but it doesn't do it for me. I always get distracted by some other book. So I've read Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk which I loved. I have to start reading more books by him. And now I'm reading a book called My Sister's Keeper by Jodie something..which coincidentally (or maybe not I'm not sure I just picked it out from the library we have here at home and it was one title I hadn't read before) is about a family who has a daughter with leukemia and the struggles the parents go through with each of the children.
And it makes me really sad because I wouldn't want that for the baby we're taking care of. He is family after all and since he's been with us for almost 2 months now he's kind of like another little brother.
i'm not done with it yet but almost, its so good I've barely put it down in the last 2 days.
So that's it. I just wanted to share the news about my reunion with reading because it's been a while and I've missed it even though I hadn't noticed it before. So that whole "be active and go out and play" crap they feed to kids....ehh I'd much rather read a book.
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dougrun:
thanks for the update. Hope the treatment works. Best wishes.
scarletletterman:
I sure hope everything works out for your little cousin. You'll be in my thoughts and I'll definitely send positive vibes in your direction. On another note, good for you getting back into reading. Reading is cheap way to take trip somewhere without leaving the comfort of your house. I think I read that somewhere. Anyway, I read quite a bit myself. As a matter of fact, I'm currently looking for a Ph.D program where I can study literature and creative writing. By the way, I think "Lullaby" by Chuck Palahniuk is pretty awesome too!