Hi guys! I'm back.
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Hi guys! Am back from trip. Had wonderful time. Went to the Carribean.
la_piepie:
I am glad you liked it 
I am glad you liked it Laughing-My good friend, we'll call him K for Internet anonymity, is gay. He doesn't like the hoo hoo, little man in the canoe, nappy dug out, whatever makes ya happy-in a low down-the VAG. He found the Vagina Monologues in my DVD collection and proceeded to have a look. Still laughing-now he's appalled. All he can say is "My vagina is angry" before he starts...
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pammy:
I like La_P's idea! Hi new friend! *waves like a tard*
pammy:
thanks alot! I'll be alright. rarely sad like that. *hugs*
Am in a different place now. Have accepted that I will not find the answer to my friend's fiance's death. My new phrase is "it is what it is," which I got from a friend of mine. So I've been trying to think about lighter things-like why my cat consistently head buts me and chases his tail while I'm on the computer, and why my...
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healthyparanoid:
Ahoy thar may-tee - ha...
How goes it? Hope all is well, basically I'm on the bum schedule - sleep for a little bit - then get up, do nothing; repeat...
So - your question was: what do I need to make life worthwhile?
A: I have no fucking clue
. Lol, seriously, if I knew that - I don't know that I would have a problem - no? I dunno - it's tough to explain - I have this like hole that I can't fill, no matter what I do.
Let me fill you in on what has happened over the course of the last year:
I went to portland to play baseball. I played my freshman year - had a good time doing that - was in school, playing ball as I have pretty much the last 5 years. Then - I started having trouble with school - things really were tough and I was having a lot of trouble with small tasks. So, I thought I was ADD and I got tested. As the semester drew to a close - baseball ended, took that test, thenfinals came, and after I got my results.
The woman just sat there and read her diagnosis: she told me and my dad that I'm dyslexic and mildly depressed - I went 19 years without knowing this - you would think this would become apparent enough in school? I guess the problem was that I'm like so smart that I can compansate for all my reading problems with everything else and still be a better than average student...
After finding out this bombshell - I went home - a week later my gf of 3 years dumps me. As I fall deeper and deeper into depression she proceeds to use me for sex while still going out and partying and eventually screwing other people while I knew nothing. With a few weeks before I went back to school she told me that she had made a mistake - and wanted to get back together. So - me still being weak - I agree. I go to school, and she dumps me again. A few weeks later I find out that the class I was going to major in - I had failed.
And that I'd have to retake the class in order to go into what I wanted to.
Now - I'm at school; living alone, being single (after 3 years - and before her I had never been with a girl) and not participating in baseball for the first time in my life, while before I thought I had direction - I have no idea what I'm going to school for.
I'm lost. I know I'm only 20 - but I feel like I'm 30 - or at least that I have the soul and maturity of a 30 year old.
I thought I was going into psych, and now? Who knows - I'm taking some acting classes - see what happens with that.
Ug - excuse this rant - but I feel like you read it anywho - might as well talk right to you-
However - after all that (and you know my sordid affairs that have happened over the last month - minus the women I've been seeing) you can kinda see where I am. But I now know 2 things for certain:
That when I come back in the summer I will be working for AMC [lol] and also being a baseball coach for glencoe - and also I leave sunday for portland - I cannot wait.
Well - enough of me - adios sweet thang
Ricky
PS... You need some fun image to slap up there. Call me picky - but you need something that says, "I'm NaughtButnice"
PPS... I just got your name...see I'm sadly dyslexic
How goes it? Hope all is well, basically I'm on the bum schedule - sleep for a little bit - then get up, do nothing; repeat...
So - your question was: what do I need to make life worthwhile?
A: I have no fucking clue
. Lol, seriously, if I knew that - I don't know that I would have a problem - no? I dunno - it's tough to explain - I have this like hole that I can't fill, no matter what I do.
Let me fill you in on what has happened over the course of the last year:
I went to portland to play baseball. I played my freshman year - had a good time doing that - was in school, playing ball as I have pretty much the last 5 years. Then - I started having trouble with school - things really were tough and I was having a lot of trouble with small tasks. So, I thought I was ADD and I got tested. As the semester drew to a close - baseball ended, took that test, thenfinals came, and after I got my results.
The woman just sat there and read her diagnosis: she told me and my dad that I'm dyslexic and mildly depressed - I went 19 years without knowing this - you would think this would become apparent enough in school? I guess the problem was that I'm like so smart that I can compansate for all my reading problems with everything else and still be a better than average student...
After finding out this bombshell - I went home - a week later my gf of 3 years dumps me. As I fall deeper and deeper into depression she proceeds to use me for sex while still going out and partying and eventually screwing other people while I knew nothing. With a few weeks before I went back to school she told me that she had made a mistake - and wanted to get back together. So - me still being weak - I agree. I go to school, and she dumps me again. A few weeks later I find out that the class I was going to major in - I had failed.
And that I'd have to retake the class in order to go into what I wanted to.
Now - I'm at school; living alone, being single (after 3 years - and before her I had never been with a girl) and not participating in baseball for the first time in my life, while before I thought I had direction - I have no idea what I'm going to school for.
I'm lost. I know I'm only 20 - but I feel like I'm 30 - or at least that I have the soul and maturity of a 30 year old.
I thought I was going into psych, and now? Who knows - I'm taking some acting classes - see what happens with that.
Ug - excuse this rant - but I feel like you read it anywho - might as well talk right to you-
However - after all that (and you know my sordid affairs that have happened over the last month - minus the women I've been seeing) you can kinda see where I am. But I now know 2 things for certain:
That when I come back in the summer I will be working for AMC [lol] and also being a baseball coach for glencoe - and also I leave sunday for portland - I cannot wait.
Well - enough of me - adios sweet thang
Ricky
PS... You need some fun image to slap up there. Call me picky - but you need something that says, "I'm NaughtButnice"
PPS... I just got your name...see I'm sadly dyslexic
la_piepie:
Yup raised Mormon. So far I get along with my family but we don't talk about it. I am sure they think I am just going through a phase...
I am going to get a tattoo that says "only the educated are free" just as soon as I get some extra money.
Paris my dream, I just have NO money, maybe someday
I still have a lot of schooling. I screwed around for a little bit but now I am on track.
Why Philly? Because I want to
My family went to hershey when I was younger and I thought it was so pretty. Plus it is close to NY. Also I have never lived there.
I love the L word. But sadly I no longer have showtime.
I did go see the season premire. I am so happy Laura (or is it Lara) is back. I love her 
I am going to get a tattoo that says "only the educated are free" just as soon as I get some extra money.
Paris my dream, I just have NO money, maybe someday
I still have a lot of schooling. I screwed around for a little bit but now I am on track.
Why Philly? Because I want to
My family went to hershey when I was younger and I thought it was so pretty. Plus it is close to NY. Also I have never lived there.
I love the L word. But sadly I no longer have showtime.
I did go see the season premire. I am so happy Laura (or is it Lara) is back. I love her It turns out that my friend's boyfriend died from a massive heart attack. We're going to the funeral this weekend. This is probably the most depressing start of a New Year ever. Just last week we were full of laughs and cocktails and now this.
I don't get it. Why do things like this happen?
I don't get it. Why do things like this happen?
healthyparanoid:
again - i'm sorry your year started out like this...
Mine started with my ex coming over and trying to beat me up fun stuff - ha.
It is digital - and I'm starting to have some fun.
Try and have some fun if you can - if there's something I can do - maybe provide a laugh - let me know.
Mine started with my ex coming over and trying to beat me up
fun stuff - ha.
It is digital - and I'm starting to have some fun.
Try and have some fun if you can - if there's something I can do - maybe provide a laugh - let me know
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healthyparanoid:
oh mu gad (said in the college girl voice...lol - good ole snl)
That was the funniest comment I have EVER read. Piss on her shoes - hahaha - gold, jerry, gold! Ug - I'll write what happened tho in a minute; but on the subject of pissing:
My good friend once was at a party - about to get head from our then high school - hrmm, let's say, for a pc term - working girl. Of course, he was pissed drunk and wasn't aware at first what was going on. Eventually, he sobered up and realized the mistake he was making. So, instead of zipping up; he opted for the quick out - piss on her.
So - yea - digital camera is 5 mps and its some sweeeeeet shit
That was the funniest comment I have EVER read. Piss on her shoes - hahaha - gold, jerry, gold! Ug - I'll write what happened tho in a minute; but on the subject of pissing:
My good friend once was at a party - about to get head from our then high school - hrmm, let's say, for a pc term - working girl. Of course, he was pissed drunk and wasn't aware at first what was going on. Eventually, he sobered up and realized the mistake he was making. So, instead of zipping up; he opted for the quick out - piss on her.
So - yea - digital camera is 5 mps and its some sweeeeeet shit
Enjoy your life, friends. My good friend's fiance died today. He was 30. He went to lie down, thinking he was hung over, and never woke up. I feel heartsick for her. I don't know what to say or do. I don't want to call as I figure her phone must be ringing off the hook. I guess I'll call tomorrow. I can't imagine what...
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healthyparanoid:
Oh man - I am sorry to hear that. I hope all is well with you and your friend.
Hrm...its tough to transition from that to tell you what kind of camera I have...
But its a canon A610 - and more pics shall be up soon
Hrm...its tough to transition from that to tell you what kind of camera I have...
But its a canon A610 - and more pics shall be up soon
howdypardner:
thanks for the comment on my set
So I tried Xanax to help with the flight. I think it helped a little but I still feel nervous. Too bad they don't prescribe Vallium anymore. Works better I hear. But hey-Im going to do this. I haven't flown much at all since I developed this damned fear. I'm sick of it! It all started because I was on a plane that hit a...
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healthyparanoid:
I am home for a month. I go to school in portland - so I fly to and from. I fly out the 16th - it's sooo time to go back.
Where are you headed?
And always a good idea: iPod w/ anything soothing (i.e. String Tribute to A Perfect Circle...lol, or Blue Man Group )
Where are you headed?
And always a good idea: iPod w/ anything soothing (i.e. String Tribute to A Perfect Circle...lol, or Blue Man Group
)
healthyparanoid:
HAPPY NEW YEAR aka HAPPY HANGOVER DAY!
Nervous. Am supposed to fly next week. Hate to fly. It has always scared the heck out of me. I think it's the whole concept that you're stuck there and you're not in control. Or it could be the whole 30,000 feet in the air thing. I know flying is safer than driving, but for some reason that doesn't matter. It still scares the hell...
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filmnoir1:
One word: valuim. 
The joys of being a smoker in winter when you can't smoke in your house...Now if you're a Midwestern smoker banned from the enjoyment of a good cig in your house, you've been there!
When the temperatures dip, you find yourself sitting in the freezing cold temperatures like a dumb ass doing anything and everything you can to get just one drag! You shiver, shake,...
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When the temperatures dip, you find yourself sitting in the freezing cold temperatures like a dumb ass doing anything and everything you can to get just one drag! You shiver, shake,...
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bbellicose:
Ha. Sixteen Candles is a perfect way to describe how I felt.
But I guess when you're in your 30s you are not supposed to care as much.
But I guess when you're in your 30s you are not supposed to care as much.
healthyparanoid:
Yea - I seem to run around chasing my dog...
Lol - and I was just about to filp - you almost told me what I haven't seen yet. I missed the first few episodes cause I was waiting to cable in my dorm...
So, I have to wait for the season to go to dvd - but thank gawd you didn't tell me...
Lol - and I was just about to filp - you almost told me what I haven't seen yet. I missed the first few episodes cause I was waiting to cable in my dorm...
So, I have to wait for the season to go to dvd - but thank gawd you didn't tell me...
Hi! I haven't written in a while. Favor-will you guys write back? Want to talk to you guys more but no one comments on my journals. Anyhow, it's a beautiful 13 degrees here-definite layout weathet. Much to write. Want to hear from you guys!!!
I broke through and finished my piece! Yay! I'm so fucking happy right now.
Been traveling a bit and have been offline.
Been traveling a bit and have been offline.
So excited for the start of the Holiday season. Love window shopping. It's so exciting. People seem to perk up as soon as the shopping starts. Weird how they say more people are affected by depression during the holiday season than any other time but everyone acts more joyful than ever and it's almost considered wrong to be openly sad during that season. Interesting little...
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What shirt are you getting?
oddly both at the same time...
could it be that mild mannered "Clark Kent" - you - could be in fact "Superman" - bbc????
lol - glad to hear you are still alive - how's the below zero temps out there? Today it was about 50
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