This journal entry is dedicated to music.....brought to you by the letter C (as in Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival).
But before we talk about music, I wanted to just say a little something about age discrimination. I have a problem with it. When I was 16/17 I had a huge issue with people discriminating against me because of my young age and the fact that I looked younger. Ya know, following you around stores, discounting any thought you had, chalking up any individuality you express as confusion......I just turned 28 and this is the first birthday that I woke up and I wasn't excited to be one year older. I wasn't exactly bummed either, I just wasn't excited. I guess I was always happy to be a year older so I could prove my maturity. Now I feel like I'm the same, but I've got to explain away my old age. Not that I feel old....don't get me wrong. The older I get, the younger I feel. But here I am, over a decade older, and still tripped up about age. It shouldn't be an issue, it's not an issue to others, just me. I have a roommate that is 20. At first, I felt weird having her move in because she is the same age as my baby sister that I practically raised. But then I realized that I can't compare them because they are completely different people and their age is only a small part of their experience similarities or differences. I have to constantly check myself about age. I always feel that if someone is younger than me then they have so much learning to do, and if someone is older than me then they should be acting their age....I'm a fucking age snob! I have to work on this.....
Okay, back to the music. Weirdness to ponder:
1. Trent Rezner is looking preppy.... what is this world coming to? Is Marilyn Manson going to be Britney Spears' future ex-husband?
2. How is it that Beck has such diverse music but always looks the same? This is proof that some things in our life absolutely need to stay the same...(by the way, he was also involved in the same relationship for most of his music career...something like 10 years, ending with "Sea Change")
3. Who is the toothless cartoon character that is the mascot for the Guerillas....what's his deal, an alter ego? And what band was the singer in before? I forget.
4. I am drawn to Rob Thomas. I used to think it was because he used to resemble an ex of mine that I was not necessarily attracted to but was a unique and fascinating guy. I didn't turn off Matchbox 20 on the radio but I never bought the cds either. He's doing the solo thing now and his new video resembles a mid-life crisis Ricki Martin parody. But yet, I love the song and am fascinated by the video. Maybe because he is looking very gay in it and is dating a beautiful supermodel....I don't know. I love contradiction.
5. My musical pet peeve: bands that you think are young, cute, naive boys (when you first hear the song) but end up to be over the hill, unattractive wannabees ala Bowling for Soup or whoever sang "Stacey's Mom"...was that Bowling for Soup, too?
The moral of the story (and how this ties into the beginning of my post) is watch out for what really gets to you, what really annoys you, what pisses you off. It's usually your shadow side coming out. It's the shit you refuse to believe about yourself so you project it onto others and hate it.
My interesting person of the day story:
I was at Moondoggies after having some sushi across the street with SamSlade. I was sitting at the bar facing my roommate when the smell of overwhelming cologne came over me. She was talking to her friends and one of them who was about 3 feet away asked the man behind me what he was wearing (this is a bad sign, guys- one strategically placed spritz at a pulse point is probably enough) because it smelled familiar. He said something that didn't make much sense but that I translated into "Calvin Klein" because I speak Spanglish. He claims that it was Escape. I have dated a few guys who have worn this and it goes to show that a scent smells dramatically different in massive amounts (once again red flag, guys). I turned around to find a tiny man shorter than me sitting. He asked me if I spoke Spanish and it began to roll off my tongue since I had a couple saki bombers at dinner. He turned out to be a bull fighter from Venezuela, and not a typical macho womanizing hispanic male at all. (I tested this instinct by asking him if he needed a drink, and noticing that he accepted rather than insisting on buying the round himself...impressive). I had a great conversation with him, and when it was over he knew enough to not lurk around even though I was hanging out with three beautiful women. Anyway, he barely spoke any English, but spoke Spanish very clearly and I could understand every word he said. He needs to learn English, is currently unemployed with unlimited free time, and knows no one in town yet. I think I found myself the perfect Spanish tutor. Ask the universe and you shall receive! On that note, I just need to stop and say thanks because I joke around about people giving me things I need, and I have a very hard time thinking of things that I "need" and don't already have.....so thanks..whoever's in charge of that shit.....
But before we talk about music, I wanted to just say a little something about age discrimination. I have a problem with it. When I was 16/17 I had a huge issue with people discriminating against me because of my young age and the fact that I looked younger. Ya know, following you around stores, discounting any thought you had, chalking up any individuality you express as confusion......I just turned 28 and this is the first birthday that I woke up and I wasn't excited to be one year older. I wasn't exactly bummed either, I just wasn't excited. I guess I was always happy to be a year older so I could prove my maturity. Now I feel like I'm the same, but I've got to explain away my old age. Not that I feel old....don't get me wrong. The older I get, the younger I feel. But here I am, over a decade older, and still tripped up about age. It shouldn't be an issue, it's not an issue to others, just me. I have a roommate that is 20. At first, I felt weird having her move in because she is the same age as my baby sister that I practically raised. But then I realized that I can't compare them because they are completely different people and their age is only a small part of their experience similarities or differences. I have to constantly check myself about age. I always feel that if someone is younger than me then they have so much learning to do, and if someone is older than me then they should be acting their age....I'm a fucking age snob! I have to work on this.....
Okay, back to the music. Weirdness to ponder:
1. Trent Rezner is looking preppy.... what is this world coming to? Is Marilyn Manson going to be Britney Spears' future ex-husband?
2. How is it that Beck has such diverse music but always looks the same? This is proof that some things in our life absolutely need to stay the same...(by the way, he was also involved in the same relationship for most of his music career...something like 10 years, ending with "Sea Change")
3. Who is the toothless cartoon character that is the mascot for the Guerillas....what's his deal, an alter ego? And what band was the singer in before? I forget.
4. I am drawn to Rob Thomas. I used to think it was because he used to resemble an ex of mine that I was not necessarily attracted to but was a unique and fascinating guy. I didn't turn off Matchbox 20 on the radio but I never bought the cds either. He's doing the solo thing now and his new video resembles a mid-life crisis Ricki Martin parody. But yet, I love the song and am fascinated by the video. Maybe because he is looking very gay in it and is dating a beautiful supermodel....I don't know. I love contradiction.
5. My musical pet peeve: bands that you think are young, cute, naive boys (when you first hear the song) but end up to be over the hill, unattractive wannabees ala Bowling for Soup or whoever sang "Stacey's Mom"...was that Bowling for Soup, too?
The moral of the story (and how this ties into the beginning of my post) is watch out for what really gets to you, what really annoys you, what pisses you off. It's usually your shadow side coming out. It's the shit you refuse to believe about yourself so you project it onto others and hate it.
My interesting person of the day story:
I was at Moondoggies after having some sushi across the street with SamSlade. I was sitting at the bar facing my roommate when the smell of overwhelming cologne came over me. She was talking to her friends and one of them who was about 3 feet away asked the man behind me what he was wearing (this is a bad sign, guys- one strategically placed spritz at a pulse point is probably enough) because it smelled familiar. He said something that didn't make much sense but that I translated into "Calvin Klein" because I speak Spanglish. He claims that it was Escape. I have dated a few guys who have worn this and it goes to show that a scent smells dramatically different in massive amounts (once again red flag, guys). I turned around to find a tiny man shorter than me sitting. He asked me if I spoke Spanish and it began to roll off my tongue since I had a couple saki bombers at dinner. He turned out to be a bull fighter from Venezuela, and not a typical macho womanizing hispanic male at all. (I tested this instinct by asking him if he needed a drink, and noticing that he accepted rather than insisting on buying the round himself...impressive). I had a great conversation with him, and when it was over he knew enough to not lurk around even though I was hanging out with three beautiful women. Anyway, he barely spoke any English, but spoke Spanish very clearly and I could understand every word he said. He needs to learn English, is currently unemployed with unlimited free time, and knows no one in town yet. I think I found myself the perfect Spanish tutor. Ask the universe and you shall receive! On that note, I just need to stop and say thanks because I joke around about people giving me things I need, and I have a very hard time thinking of things that I "need" and don't already have.....so thanks..whoever's in charge of that shit.....
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I've noticed many ladies love Rob Thomas. My last serious girlfriend had a thing for him too, but during his Matchbox 20 days. Some people just have that whatchamacallit that makes people go ga-ga
As for birthdays....I just turned 28 too, and I can relate a little bit to what you're saying about that.