Hi guys !
So, like, I assume, a lot of ladies here, I've always given the first impression of being "unreachable", whatever that is supposed to mean.
What doesn't really get taken into consideration here is that looks don't define who you are. As much of an extrovert as I am, usually, I get social anxiety at times, especially in bars and at shows. I know, I know "no way", "b*llsh*t", I heard that before haha but all of this come from somewhere.
It was a weird passage when I left my teen years and suddenly I wasn't the goth kid no more and I became the pretty obscure and mysterious lady. The way people would stare changed radically and it also changed who I am today. Okay, I get it, I grew boobs and a butt but down the road I also traded up my latex dresses for my black pants and metal shirts and even though today I embrace the/my sexuality I can expose, voluntarily or not, I will never forget how people's behavior changed so quickly.
It also created awkward situations where a "I don't know what to do with myself" facial expression would be confused with a "resting bitch face". You can imagine the surprise when you have those talks weeks later with anyone you met that night haha !
Deep down I've always been the weirdo gamer alternative chick and that never changed and never will. If tomorrow people could look at my physical appearance and take a second to realize I'm not just a piece of meat : I happen to be a funny, smart, talented and sexy one, then I'd feel like I achieve the impossible in this lifetime. Ultimately looks fade and I've never been a big fan of these in the first place, your soul is who you are and that can be the ugliest thing about someone.
Through modeling and nude photography I feel like I already won a battle, I'm not scared to look like a little boy but we all damn know I'm also perfectly able of putting heels on and showing it all.
Life is made of the little and big successes.
Love to y'all
N.
@rambo @missy
