I'm pretty bummed.
Last night Bec and I shot a set on the Pollak roof on campus. I was really excited for this set because it was such a sick location and I loved the outfit I was wearing, but as soon as I saw the pictures I wanted to cry. I did cry. I looked awful. All I wanted to do was point out all the things I thought were wrong about myself. Usually I wouldn't have such a strong reaction to bad pictures of myself, but it almost made me doubt even trying to go Pink anymore. I thought "If THAT is what I actually look like I'll never go pink.."
Bec asked me what I thought and I just said "I just don't think I look good in them, I don't know." She seemed shocked when I said that which really didn't make any sense. We were both looking at the same pictures.
I don't really know how to tell Bec that I'm unhappy with how they came out because I'm not unhappy with her work, I''m disappointed in myself. I feel like she does all of this work for nothing.
I'm hoping that my trip to New York will lift my spirits.
Even though I'm not a fan of myself in these pictures, Bec did a really good job and I hope that when I get over these hangups about myself that we can work together again and both of us will be happy with the results.
