So here's some food for thought... Nereid and I were at the hot tub store yesterday, and we were looking at the new models and discussing what we would do differently next time, yadeyada. Anyways, we get to a point where I made the comment about how if I new then what I know now, I would never have bought the hot tub I bought, and her reply was that we would not have met then, cuz of course the night I met her (through a buddy), I was throwing one of my many hot tub parties, and of course no hot tub, no hot tub party.
BUT!!
I'm a believer in fate/destiny/karma... whatever is meant to be will be.... and we very definitely were meant to be...
SO!!!
I think that even if I hadn't been retarded, and blew 20 grand on a hot tub that summer, I still would have run across her at some point around the same time, and we still would have hooked up (minus one incredibly hot night in the hot tub).
so what's your thoughts?
BUT!!
I'm a believer in fate/destiny/karma... whatever is meant to be will be.... and we very definitely were meant to be...
SO!!!
I think that even if I hadn't been retarded, and blew 20 grand on a hot tub that summer, I still would have run across her at some point around the same time, and we still would have hooked up (minus one incredibly hot night in the hot tub).
so what's your thoughts?
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Dilemna: My Nana was in the hospital down in Calgary the past two days, having surgery to remove cancer. Of course all I do is work. I got off as early as I could last nite, and called the hospital to see if the would extend visiting hours a bit for an out of towner. They wouldn't, but at least they let me talk to her. She goes home today with homecare.
Where's the dilemna you ask?
All day I was fighting myself about going. Chances according to my brother, were very good that "the prick" was going to be there. I swore you would never catch me in the same room as him ever again. (Really frustrating is how he told my nana to fuck off twenty years ago, then very conveniently walks back into her life two years ago when he found out he was written out of his step-mothers will).
So my first dilemna was incredibly selfish... do I visit her and risk running into him and his bitch wife, or don't I visit her, and she loses out... well you already know the answer to that... but that's still not "the" dilemna.
So after talking to Nana on the phone, Nereid and I went out for supper. Now Nereid is very little help in this department as she hates the man, and has a very anarchistic side to her in the first place, but my dilemna is and has been this for years.
I can't figure out what the hell to call him in conversation. Having to call him "Dad" in conversation chaps my ass supreme. But when talking to my brother, I can't just say "your dad", cuz that just seems childish. Cuz let's face it... like it or not, he is my father, I tried calling him "him", but then everyone looks at me like I got issues there or something... doesn't work for me.... It would be really nice if he would just drop dead and I would never have to acknowledge him again, but that's not likely to happen anytime soon... so what can he be called that acknowledges the fact that yes he is my father tho he's as much as a father as shit floating in the toilet bowl is a father, but also stays respectful to my brother who I refuse to pull into my issues, and keeps my Nana happy?
On the plus side, "the bitch" can always be called "the bitch"!