nate8d

So over the course of the last year all the confidence in the world, the confidence that drives me to do things I'm not scared of. Like chase after my dreams, be strong in my convictions and positive about the future... Everything that was truly me. I was always sure about what I wanted. Now I'm the most indecisive, insecure, negative person around, I felt crazy. I lost who I was proud to be. I even look at my face from then and now and it's as if something is gone. What could it be? I thought I had everything I wanted... I was in love.

I was given a wonderful idea. I was talking to my mom and she told me something she did with the guy who donated sperm (St_Ranger's father). She reminded me that I really can read people well and it wasn't something I had lost. She told me to record your conversations with anyone who made me sad or had a gut feelings about some things and I did.
... ever since I got my IPhone I recorded every conversation. It sucks that I had to drop to such a level. It wasn't something that I wanted to use against anyone, I did it because I felt psychologically sick. In a few conversation I asked why they couldn't trust me.... After a couple weeks of recording conversations I started gaining some confidence back. and over the last week and a half I truly feel like I'm not crazy. I'm not saying the other person is crazy at all. They' just have very little respect for me and/or think very highly of themself.

What should I do?


This made my night

me: Whats your interest in a member named *****?
them: ""do you guys know each other or something? i was friends w/****** when i used to be on here. i enjoy ****** blogs...."
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WOW!