Welcome to a new day that is the psychodrama of my life because I am stuck in this god forsaken town:
Found out something VERY interesting last night. Little back story: when I was with my ex there was a girl that he and I gamed with...she was closer friends with him than me, granted, but I still thought of her as a friend. Then my ex starts telling me that she was hitting on him constantly....even to go so far one night as to confront him about her feelings for him while he was giving her a ride home. Of course he told me that he told her that he was spoken for and loved me...blah,blah,blah. Needless to say, I stopped speaking to her because I was pretty pissed that she would do something like that.
Where here is where it gets interesting. I have been gaming with this girl again and we have reinitiated a friendship...so to clear the air, I decided to confront her about the whole thing last night. Seems that my ex is a little confused about what happened. It appears to be the case that he was constantly coming onto her...she told me she made it clear several times that nothing could ever happend between them because she had a boyfriend. I should have fucking known. With everything he did to me....you would think I would have suspected that he was a fucking liar. What makes things worse is that I never, ever, gave this guy any reason to doubt me or not trust me and toward the end of our relationship he began to accuse me of all kinds of crazy shit...like trying to trick him into getting me pregnant.....which I would never in a million years do to anyone and I hate girls who do that.....then he accused me of planning to spend money behind his back on his credit card. I am one of the most honest people I know....I never gave him any reason to distrust me....and then I find out that he was hitting on one of my friends and lying to me about it. I am usually not the type of person to experience regret. I believe that everything in our lives happens for a reason. But , and of course I have left out even worse things that he did to me, I can honestly say at this point that if I could reverse time....I never would have gotten involved with this person in the first place.....he has brought me nothing but grief and until very recently....was still messing with my life...god....what a waste of three years...what a waste of my precious life and what a waste of my potential and the love I have to offer. And what he did to my son was unconscionable. I have kept my mouth shut so far because I knew that if I siad anything about him...there are certain people on this site that will probably get me kicked off. But I'm sorry, it's okay for him to sit and say things about me, but I can't vent about him if I'm not using his name? This person broke my heart and then stole all of my friends because those friends are getting his very skewed side of the story and believing him. They have no idea about the truth of what went down...if they did, they might not think he was such a great guy. But I'm not going to sink so low as to start telling all on SG. I just think it sucks that I lost friends because someone has to play the victim...and now to make matters even worse....he has now decided to play the martyr and try to make nice,nice with me...on his page of course so that his friends can see that he is the nice guy and I am the monster....and if I were to actually respond to his post and tell him what I think of him and call him out on all of his bullshit so that his friends would know the truth about who he is...where would that get me? Kicked off SG. Hell, this post might get me kicked off...but you know what? I don't care anymore...I'm not just going to sit back and let everyone make me the bad guy anymore. I joined a new website where everyone is my friend and I fully plan on going on there and telling the truth about everything that has gone down.....so anyone interested in actually knowing the truth is invited to view my page on the new site. And if I get kicked off here...I'm putting my email address on my profile so that my friends can contact me. That's all............I'm going to sleep.
Found out something VERY interesting last night. Little back story: when I was with my ex there was a girl that he and I gamed with...she was closer friends with him than me, granted, but I still thought of her as a friend. Then my ex starts telling me that she was hitting on him constantly....even to go so far one night as to confront him about her feelings for him while he was giving her a ride home. Of course he told me that he told her that he was spoken for and loved me...blah,blah,blah. Needless to say, I stopped speaking to her because I was pretty pissed that she would do something like that.
Where here is where it gets interesting. I have been gaming with this girl again and we have reinitiated a friendship...so to clear the air, I decided to confront her about the whole thing last night. Seems that my ex is a little confused about what happened. It appears to be the case that he was constantly coming onto her...she told me she made it clear several times that nothing could ever happend between them because she had a boyfriend. I should have fucking known. With everything he did to me....you would think I would have suspected that he was a fucking liar. What makes things worse is that I never, ever, gave this guy any reason to doubt me or not trust me and toward the end of our relationship he began to accuse me of all kinds of crazy shit...like trying to trick him into getting me pregnant.....which I would never in a million years do to anyone and I hate girls who do that.....then he accused me of planning to spend money behind his back on his credit card. I am one of the most honest people I know....I never gave him any reason to distrust me....and then I find out that he was hitting on one of my friends and lying to me about it. I am usually not the type of person to experience regret. I believe that everything in our lives happens for a reason. But , and of course I have left out even worse things that he did to me, I can honestly say at this point that if I could reverse time....I never would have gotten involved with this person in the first place.....he has brought me nothing but grief and until very recently....was still messing with my life...god....what a waste of three years...what a waste of my precious life and what a waste of my potential and the love I have to offer. And what he did to my son was unconscionable. I have kept my mouth shut so far because I knew that if I siad anything about him...there are certain people on this site that will probably get me kicked off. But I'm sorry, it's okay for him to sit and say things about me, but I can't vent about him if I'm not using his name? This person broke my heart and then stole all of my friends because those friends are getting his very skewed side of the story and believing him. They have no idea about the truth of what went down...if they did, they might not think he was such a great guy. But I'm not going to sink so low as to start telling all on SG. I just think it sucks that I lost friends because someone has to play the victim...and now to make matters even worse....he has now decided to play the martyr and try to make nice,nice with me...on his page of course so that his friends can see that he is the nice guy and I am the monster....and if I were to actually respond to his post and tell him what I think of him and call him out on all of his bullshit so that his friends would know the truth about who he is...where would that get me? Kicked off SG. Hell, this post might get me kicked off...but you know what? I don't care anymore...I'm not just going to sit back and let everyone make me the bad guy anymore. I joined a new website where everyone is my friend and I fully plan on going on there and telling the truth about everything that has gone down.....so anyone interested in actually knowing the truth is invited to view my page on the new site. And if I get kicked off here...I'm putting my email address on my profile so that my friends can contact me. That's all............I'm going to sleep.
lewin:
that shit sounds like something My ex wife would pull. she is a kaniving back stabbing .... well you know. she lies in everything she says or does. I cannot stand a liar.
natashanasty:
Yeah...what is worse is that all of the people that were supposed to be my friends are now his friends and believing his twisted side of the story...and he sits on this website and whines about how I supposedly abused him and how he is so screwed up about our relationship....this is a guy that I was engaged to..that left me three times, each time blaming me for our problems, insisted on being a "daddy" to my son and then abandoned him when he left me after I had spent six grand on his house and two months before our wedding which was already planned. And when I confronted him about it...he had me commited to a psych ward for a 72 hour hold...but I'm the bad guy right? All I ever did was try to love him....I never treated him badly....and I'm not supposed to be saying any of these things because he has friends on SG who will have me kicked off...but he can say anything he wants about me. Whatever....I'm so done with it...if he wants to kick me off...fine....like I said I'll just go on the other website and tell my story.....make sure to post to me on myspace.com....we can talk more freely there. thanks a lot for your support and comments. Hey...maybe we could fix up my ex with your ex and they could just sit around and lie together and backstab each other!