nataleigh

ouch. ouch pure and simple.

WARNING: i am sooooo angry right now and even though there may (and i use that term loosely) reason that this may have happened, i am angry and i am going to rant about it. however i do have enough tact to not say who this person is.

so there was a girl that i met who decided she wanted to be on SG so she coudl do a set with me. so we both applied to shoot with Oryx. she got to and i didn't. i was most supportive even though it hurt so much to hear her talking about it. and what hurt even more is that either she was completely ignorant of how much it meant to me, or she just didn't care. so everytime i came online the first thing she would talk to me about was her adn SG. now it is something to be excited about but....

this girl had NO clue of what this site was about. and i mean she knew NOTHING. so she asked me to explain it to her. she had no clue that as an SG she would be representing what it is to be a strong and independent woman. she had no clue of the groups on SG, and had little to no interest in meeting ppl on teh site. so i explained to her that as an SG she would need to get somewhat involved in the site.

so today apparently she is going pink. well congrats. so i went to go and congradulate her and realized that she wasn't on my friends list anymore. so i clicked the link on teh other persons journal thinking that maybe her name had already changed adn i just wan't recognizing it. but that was not the case. she has removed me from her friend's list. i can not understand this for the life of me as we chill a fair bit and we both have crushes on one another. but i know that i did not delete her.

so needless to say, i am pissed. i supported this girl from teh very beginning and she didnt' even give a fuck about me and my hopes of being an SG. i am nto saying she had to, but you figure that i had made it clear how important it was to me, that she might not have rubbed it in my face every chance she got. so i say have fun being an SG. and i find it sad that you have no clue what it means. this is not just some site you pose nude on for shits and giggles (although some do). you are here to represent strong and independent woman who are not your barbie doll stereotype adn to show the world how beautiful diversity is. at least now i know how shallow this person is and i no longer need to associate myself with me.

it jsut sucks that through a bunch of bullshit, i saw some good there. case and point to why a bisexual girl has problems dating women.

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


P.S. please let me know if there is somethign wrong with this entry as according to someone it warrants being reported to SG. last time i checked, the person's name was not in here and anything linking them to me is now gone. so please explain to me what i have done wrong by posting this.