nataleigh

well yesterday really sucked ass. i went back to a dark place i haven't visited in a while. oh well. we all slip up everyonce in a while. i am no more perfect than the next person.

i got into a fight with my bestfriend over what i posted in LJ which was the same as what i posted in this journal. he took it as a slight against him. so he freaked out and made me feel liek even more shit than i already did. today we are meeting up to clean up the mess. i am afriad that i am still crusty from last night and i will say stuff i don't mean jsut out of spite. i can be horrible like that sometimes.

and then i had a whole bunch of dreams about this guy dan that i was sort of friends with. we both liked each other but it was so important to him to date someone in his scene and i wasn't. but he still was interested and one night we had sex and it was beautiful cuz i got to see this really sweet side of him and the next day he acted like it never happened and shit just got weird. seeing him again always makes things harder. i guess i just wanted my closure.