Woohoo!
So, some people randomly IM people they barely know and make disparaging remarks when they're drunk; I've decided to leave an SG posting.
Don't let the great spelling and grammar fool you kids; I'm 3/4 in the bag...
And its funny, cause I'm not really a drinker. At least, not anymore. I used to do pretty much anything, well, no. I smoked and drank, and tried everything else once to have the experience and move on. (Except anything with a needle- sweet JESUS, no.) But I feel like I've, I don't know, outgrown it?
Just saying that makes me feel older than I am, but as my mom said to me in a conversation this weekend (and I'm surprised she finally owned up to it) "[I've] always been older than the people I hang out with." Even my girlfriend, while I love her, will never come to terms with some of the philosophizing I do because she, admittedly, "has a lot of growing up to do."
So, here I am, bottle in hand. I don't quite know why, but then, I don't really feel like questioning it. Every once in a while a guy just wants to DRINK. Not to get hammered, or make a fool out of himself, but to...disconnect from this world of ours, that keeps us so constantly bursting at the synapses.
The playwright John Patrick Shanley said it best, in a monologue I often perform at auditions:
"Why I drink. Nerves. My nerves try to talk to me and I shut them up by drinking. I drink so that I won't talk about something important; to keep from feeling, because if I feel...I will drink...and change the spirit in the room dangerously. I drink because I want to be apart from other people, to be invulnerable, to be wholly seperated from my spirit. To be soulless, because my soul is a burden to me. I drink because I want to be an animal and love no one and create nothing. A friend once said to me, drink in hand, 'I drink because it's the only thing that isn't painful.'"
Now, I wouldn't go quite as far as Mr. Shanley, but I understand the sentiment. So for any of you folks out there in dreamland who get my vibe right now and have drunken "at one with the universe" stories of your own, feel free to share. If its one thing I've learned at college, its that alcohol loves company.
oh and PS- no one answered my clubbing question. I'm not yet in SGNY (I applied yesterday), but if there's anyone out there who wants to go to Roxy and dance all night, I'd love to meet y'all. There's nothing quite like a night of techno to chase the world away...
See you next time. Same Pat time, same Pat channel...
So, some people randomly IM people they barely know and make disparaging remarks when they're drunk; I've decided to leave an SG posting.
Don't let the great spelling and grammar fool you kids; I'm 3/4 in the bag...
And its funny, cause I'm not really a drinker. At least, not anymore. I used to do pretty much anything, well, no. I smoked and drank, and tried everything else once to have the experience and move on. (Except anything with a needle- sweet JESUS, no.) But I feel like I've, I don't know, outgrown it?
Just saying that makes me feel older than I am, but as my mom said to me in a conversation this weekend (and I'm surprised she finally owned up to it) "[I've] always been older than the people I hang out with." Even my girlfriend, while I love her, will never come to terms with some of the philosophizing I do because she, admittedly, "has a lot of growing up to do."
So, here I am, bottle in hand. I don't quite know why, but then, I don't really feel like questioning it. Every once in a while a guy just wants to DRINK. Not to get hammered, or make a fool out of himself, but to...disconnect from this world of ours, that keeps us so constantly bursting at the synapses.
The playwright John Patrick Shanley said it best, in a monologue I often perform at auditions:
"Why I drink. Nerves. My nerves try to talk to me and I shut them up by drinking. I drink so that I won't talk about something important; to keep from feeling, because if I feel...I will drink...and change the spirit in the room dangerously. I drink because I want to be apart from other people, to be invulnerable, to be wholly seperated from my spirit. To be soulless, because my soul is a burden to me. I drink because I want to be an animal and love no one and create nothing. A friend once said to me, drink in hand, 'I drink because it's the only thing that isn't painful.'"
Now, I wouldn't go quite as far as Mr. Shanley, but I understand the sentiment. So for any of you folks out there in dreamland who get my vibe right now and have drunken "at one with the universe" stories of your own, feel free to share. If its one thing I've learned at college, its that alcohol loves company.
oh and PS- no one answered my clubbing question. I'm not yet in SGNY (I applied yesterday), but if there's anyone out there who wants to go to Roxy and dance all night, I'd love to meet y'all. There's nothing quite like a night of techno to chase the world away...
See you next time. Same Pat time, same Pat channel...
The first time I got drunk was on the Yankee Ferry docked on Chambers street in the city. Phew... as if the ground didn't seem like it was moving before... it definitely was then. I knew I was getting drunk though when the boat stopped moving...
Ha ha.