Well, its August. Thank God.
The summer has been rediculously trying. My brother's cancer has been the elephant in the room for many months, and while its hard not to feel bad for him, he makes me feel even worse because his horrible additude towards every member of my family makes me wish bad things on him. Then I feel guilty, because blood should be thicker than pettiness, I buddy up with him and do what I can to be there for him (without actually letting him know...hubris will surely break this family one day...) and he takes it in stride, and steals my wallet the second I turn my back. There are some people in the world, I feel, that have gotten such a raw deal somewhere, be it bad friends, poor habbits, or just being kicked when they were down, that they lash out at the few hands extending out to them. It's those bites that hurt the most.
Its funny I'm writing about this at all...I had started this journal to warn people that "The Villiage is a B movie at best." Rent it if you have to, but save your money in the theatre. And PS- Manchurian Candidate? Can John Demme (dir) PLEASE stop making crappier remakes to better films? Come on. Silence...Lambs? Awesome original film. Truth About Charlie? Just rent Charade. Stay home and watch Angela Lansburry actually do something you can stomach. At least it makes up for Broadway's Mame.
PS- I'm only in CT for 12 more days and then its "take me back to Manhattan". (Oh god I'm quoting musical numbers from Cole Porter...hah...yet another potential movie gone horribly wrong...someone stop me while I'm behind.) So, any New York SG girls that wanna drop me a line, I'm always lookin' to broaden my horrizons and meet new people.
Goodnight you princesses of Merriden, you queens of New England.
The summer has been rediculously trying. My brother's cancer has been the elephant in the room for many months, and while its hard not to feel bad for him, he makes me feel even worse because his horrible additude towards every member of my family makes me wish bad things on him. Then I feel guilty, because blood should be thicker than pettiness, I buddy up with him and do what I can to be there for him (without actually letting him know...hubris will surely break this family one day...) and he takes it in stride, and steals my wallet the second I turn my back. There are some people in the world, I feel, that have gotten such a raw deal somewhere, be it bad friends, poor habbits, or just being kicked when they were down, that they lash out at the few hands extending out to them. It's those bites that hurt the most.
Its funny I'm writing about this at all...I had started this journal to warn people that "The Villiage is a B movie at best." Rent it if you have to, but save your money in the theatre. And PS- Manchurian Candidate? Can John Demme (dir) PLEASE stop making crappier remakes to better films? Come on. Silence...Lambs? Awesome original film. Truth About Charlie? Just rent Charade. Stay home and watch Angela Lansburry actually do something you can stomach. At least it makes up for Broadway's Mame.
PS- I'm only in CT for 12 more days and then its "take me back to Manhattan". (Oh god I'm quoting musical numbers from Cole Porter...hah...yet another potential movie gone horribly wrong...someone stop me while I'm behind.) So, any New York SG girls that wanna drop me a line, I'm always lookin' to broaden my horrizons and meet new people.
Goodnight you princesses of Merriden, you queens of New England.
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I am sure with your parents situation ontop of his, ontop of whatever other things are going on in his life.... it could very possibly feel to him like his life is laughable. With that sort of attitude its easy to be all negative like he has been.
Some people realize the importance of family during times like this.... i guess instead he chose to use your family because he dosent want to see the love right now... pretty much just wants to see the hopelessness that he wants to be right about.
Course this is just my opinion... and i say it here cause i wouldent want him to accidently read this on AIM or somethin but i definatly wanted to show you i was listenin
You are doing a good job being a brother though Pat... is there any chance you could sit em down and tell him how much you love him and want him to take advantage of the family? Maybe help remind him how strong the families love is even if the mother and father are breaking apart?
*dissapears in a poof of stinky green fart mist*