naiya

things have been a little hectic here so i'm sorry for the lack of blog and this ones going to be short too
me and mark broke up officially on my birthday, i think he wants me back, i don't think i could hack a relationship with him again..
anyway i'm seeing a new guy.. but he's currently ignoring me so i'll let you all know if my new joy is short lived
i had to be re-tested at the gu clinic today, i hate it
it's so demeaning, i feel stupid and about this --- big..
i was diagnosed with depression, underlying for yrs, last week, so i'm trying to deal with that, their not putting me on anti-depressants though, i've lost weight, i'm not really sleeping, things are tough, but i guess i'll plod on.
i feel quite sad that me and juan seem to be drifting away from one another. but i don't know what i can do.
i don't even really know what to say
my little sister's pregnant so i'm going to be an aunty.
i go home on the 27th
i just want to curl up in my own bed with my cat
i want to stop crying..
i want this police thing to be over
i want..
i want..
i want...
the list is endless