This fucking blows!!!! I've decided to take a break from drinking only to find out that my friends are all a bunch of drunks! this is the second Saturday night in a row I have sat at home alone. On top of it all, my girlfriend left me just before New Years and moved all of her shit out of the house. It has been a rough couple of months so it really was a good thing. The bad part is, I was so happy to have my apartment to myself again and I got it all fixed up. I was excited to have company because I am so sick of the bars and hanging out on the same couches watching the same shit on tv with my friends. Now everybody keeps flaking on me. My two best friends who also thought it would be a good idea to chill out on the drinking are going out and getting hammered at the bar. I had hoped that we could all take a break from the bullshit and act like adults for a change and it seems like I'm the only one doing it and doing it alone. I am so fucking bored. If I wasn't I wouldn't be typing all this crap for any random person to read. On top of all this other shit, I have been unemployed for three months with few prospects.I was denied unemployment (I have been paying in for seventeen years and have never once been unemployed...BASTARDS!!). I have run completely out of money. I still have obligations to the court for another eight months (costs money I don't have). My truck is falling apart. Anything else?
Funny thing is, I feel totally optomistic. Last year was the absolute worst of my life. I feel like all of these obstacles are just the last raindrops from the dark cloud that has been looming life. Right now sucks but the introspection from solitude has really shed light on my part in these circumstances. I am again regaining my optomism and confidence. Some people say that is all you really need in life. I have perservered. Nothing can break me. My past ignorance has caused me to be down trodden but I am standing up again. The world can hit me with everything it has and I will fight back and fight back hard. Bring it on mother fuckers!!! I am ready for anything. I won't be stopped!!!
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Funny thing is, I feel totally optomistic. Last year was the absolute worst of my life. I feel like all of these obstacles are just the last raindrops from the dark cloud that has been looming life. Right now sucks but the introspection from solitude has really shed light on my part in these circumstances. I am again regaining my optomism and confidence. Some people say that is all you really need in life. I have perservered. Nothing can break me. My past ignorance has caused me to be down trodden but I am standing up again. The world can hit me with everything it has and I will fight back and fight back hard. Bring it on mother fuckers!!! I am ready for anything. I won't be stopped!!!
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