nadya

All in all, she is amazing...i want to do everything and anything for her and hopefully i will have enoough money saved up to go to england and stay with her in the fall.

... That's from Ian's Livejournal acouple weeks ago. And yeah, i got my hopes up.. which i shouldn't have.

It doesn't look like he's going to be able to save up and come to England with me, mainly because he has to spend all this money to go on tour with a band that doesn't even really acknowledge him as a member. Whatever. It's a bummer, but i completely understand. Those are his friends.. which are basically like his family. Bros before hoes, i guess. But i perfer the term "hussy" thank you very much.

He means the world to me, and i would do anything for him, for us. Even if that means giving up on the semester abroad. Is he worth it? No doubt about it. Boys like him a few and far between... plus i don't even like Europeans, they smell and have bad teeth.

I just wish he wouldn't beat himself up over it. I wish he knew that where ever he is, thats where i wanna be.

And I don't care if you think I'm stupid.
I don't care if I'm too wrapped up in him.
Pull the wool farther over my face.
It's warmer that way.