nachthound

It has been a long and crappy day.

Fighting off the urge to be fatalistic. There was a time in my life when I didn't care about anything. I find it is so much easier than caring. Then again, it is the coward's way out.

I have found over the years that there are many things that I am. A bastard, an asshole, mortal, funny...whatever. It can never be said that I am a coward. Besides, there are too many things I have going for me that I can't let go. Too many things I have to take care of. God I hate being an adult.

Still looking for a job. No way to get hired when there are no jobs out there. I ran into my old boss the other day in Best Buy, he has been laid off as many times as me since the old company shut down. He is unemployed too.

Working and going to school all the time sucks. No days off from work sucks. Having 3 classes with a heavy workload sucks. Dirty dishes suck. Having put on so much weight sucks. Bad knees suck.

Toys don't suck, the hellcat doesn't suck (well she does... ), new pillows don't suck, friends don't suck, booze doesn't suck.

Strange how the sucks list is always easier to come up with than the doesn't suck list.

I am probably just feeling old and tired.