n8tvegrl

I know it's a cop out but I wish I could skip backwards or forwards right now. The immediate seems to be so unclear to me and I feel so lost. I wish I had time for SG, money to move out, friends to reassure me, and more energy for my kids.

Instead I have feelings for someone I can't be with, a lack of feelings for the one I AM with and the rest of life tends to just be a bit too much.

I had a dream last night that I was cutting myself all over and woke up a bit confused. Can it be that I'm hurting myself right now and that is why I dream of such things? The scariest part was that I wanted to do it in real life...