I saw my grandparents last night.. they stopped by to drop off a gift for miss Ava. It's painful to see them now that my grandmother's developed demencia... I don't quite know how to deal with it yet.
I'm glad I knew her as a woman and had the chance to live nearby and see her as often as I did as a child... my cousin didn't have that luxury. I have also had the chance to read her poetry and feel deeply connected to her, so seeing her change is troubling.
My grandmother was difficult when she had all of her faculties... sharp tongued, bossy and opinionated. Now she's childlike and unsure... wandering around the house and worrying about anything and everything, following grandpa everywhere. She lives in the past now.. talking about people who are dead or my mom and her sister when they were young. Pictures are EVERYWHERE in the house.. lying on every surface you can find. Perhaps it makes remembering easier.. I'm not sure.
And then there is my grandfather. He tried to protect her and hide her slipping mind when she wasn't able to admit it and is forever patient with her. He answers her questions even after answering the same ones ten times in a day without frustration. I wonder how it is that someone could love that deeply and commit themselves forever to another. My boyfriend doesn't love me that way. I don't know many people who do have that and I can't help but wonder if I'll ever find that kind of devotion.
I'm glad I knew her as a woman and had the chance to live nearby and see her as often as I did as a child... my cousin didn't have that luxury. I have also had the chance to read her poetry and feel deeply connected to her, so seeing her change is troubling.
My grandmother was difficult when she had all of her faculties... sharp tongued, bossy and opinionated. Now she's childlike and unsure... wandering around the house and worrying about anything and everything, following grandpa everywhere. She lives in the past now.. talking about people who are dead or my mom and her sister when they were young. Pictures are EVERYWHERE in the house.. lying on every surface you can find. Perhaps it makes remembering easier.. I'm not sure.
And then there is my grandfather. He tried to protect her and hide her slipping mind when she wasn't able to admit it and is forever patient with her. He answers her questions even after answering the same ones ten times in a day without frustration. I wonder how it is that someone could love that deeply and commit themselves forever to another. My boyfriend doesn't love me that way. I don't know many people who do have that and I can't help but wonder if I'll ever find that kind of devotion.
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Sorry to hear about your grandma's illness, but that's a touching story of how devoted your grandfather is. I think we all want that kind of devotion in our lives...and very few of us are lucky enough to find it.
the reason i like the koi are they are a lot more colorfull then goldfish. the one i bought today is blue and orange. i do have some gold fish in it but just like the koi a lot more