I've been away and dealing with real life shit and just came back to find out a great friend had passed. It just seems so unfair. My husband had some sort of stroke or something (they aren't sure yet) and was in the hospital all day New Years Eve and then I find out SocietysPliers was found dead.
Life is some sort of cruel joke. My health is already fucked, I can't function mentally, and I offer nothing to society or those I love and yet I am still here and they fall. WHY??? They have people that rely on them and yet my pathetic existence plods along for the moment?
I just don't get it.
I'm sad to see a friend go. I'm scared of what will be the fate of my family. I just don't see this as being a good year and I have a feeling that there will be much more shit to follow and I doubt I can deal with it at this point.
Life is some sort of cruel joke. My health is already fucked, I can't function mentally, and I offer nothing to society or those I love and yet I am still here and they fall. WHY??? They have people that rely on them and yet my pathetic existence plods along for the moment?
I just don't get it.
I'm sad to see a friend go. I'm scared of what will be the fate of my family. I just don't see this as being a good year and I have a feeling that there will be much more shit to follow and I doubt I can deal with it at this point.
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Please hang in there. I know it's not easy, but it can be done. You're very brave to post these very personal feelings. I've felt a need to do the same thing lately. While it's not easy to bear your soul like this, I'd like to think that it allows for some measure of a catharsis.
You obviously have many people in your life who love and care about you. I'm blessed with that as well. Try to keep fighting. There's really no other option.
Take good care.