Ok so im hungover. I drank almost half a bottle of Pastis last night, and my current headache is a testament to that accomplishment.
In other news work is funny, and hard but the money is good. In other more interesting news my "girlfriend" left town yesterday, normally I would be sad, but I am kinda relieved. She is going away to India all summer, and she wants me to wait for her until Sept. This is most troubling, for I do not feel for her as much as she does for me. Whats more is she is leaving in Dec forever, so after being some lady in waiting all summer im supposed to just suck it up and say goodbye in Dec? I dont need that, enough people in my life have left me, ive had a my heart broken too many times to go through that shit again. I dont want to hurt her feelings, she is so sweet. But all this pressure to be a boyfriend is kinda too much, and what the fuck I dont want to get attached to someone who is going to ditch me in a few months. I dont want a girlfriend anyway, I like being single, I like being flirty and scandalous. I like having crushes and getting all crushed out. And moreover I like being alone, literally, I really value my alone time. There is nothing I love more than dancing around my loft nakked, making myself dinner and watching a movie.
Dont get me wrong I love my friends very dearly, but girlfriends take up too much time, with the needyness and dependance. I dont know.
Anyway thats enough outta me for now. Im gonna go make brekky, or frustuck as they say in Germany.
And tonight, im gettin wasted again, so look out Montreal, n2ocowboys gettin rowdy tonight.
In other news work is funny, and hard but the money is good. In other more interesting news my "girlfriend" left town yesterday, normally I would be sad, but I am kinda relieved. She is going away to India all summer, and she wants me to wait for her until Sept. This is most troubling, for I do not feel for her as much as she does for me. Whats more is she is leaving in Dec forever, so after being some lady in waiting all summer im supposed to just suck it up and say goodbye in Dec? I dont need that, enough people in my life have left me, ive had a my heart broken too many times to go through that shit again. I dont want to hurt her feelings, she is so sweet. But all this pressure to be a boyfriend is kinda too much, and what the fuck I dont want to get attached to someone who is going to ditch me in a few months. I dont want a girlfriend anyway, I like being single, I like being flirty and scandalous. I like having crushes and getting all crushed out. And moreover I like being alone, literally, I really value my alone time. There is nothing I love more than dancing around my loft nakked, making myself dinner and watching a movie.
Dont get me wrong I love my friends very dearly, but girlfriends take up too much time, with the needyness and dependance. I dont know.
Anyway thats enough outta me for now. Im gonna go make brekky, or frustuck as they say in Germany.
And tonight, im gettin wasted again, so look out Montreal, n2ocowboys gettin rowdy tonight.
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and no way man, why wait around for three months, only for three months?! that is kind of weird for her to even ask that, in my opinion.
Try and keep the door open for possible fun when she's back, but committment would NOT be fun.