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I've been feeling more satisfied with my life than I was there for a while. On-going static patterns tend to annoy my after a while and that annoyance often leads to unemployment and disintegrated relationships. It also leads to things like promotions and getting laid. Regardless, my inner turmoil helps move me forward in life. But my current life situation is such that I don't want it to blow up so I have to be more patient in my climbing of the tree of life. Waiting tables was really getting on my nerves there for a while and I said something about it to my GM. I'm appreciated to an embarrassing degree at my place of work. They will do what they can to make me happy. What's weird is that I felt that way from the moment I set foot in the place. At first I chalked it up to being an acquaintance of the owner (I cannot stress enough: NETWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and I know I do a good job there but the management there has always been exceptionally kind to me and that means the world to me. I know I'm in a good spot there but I can't just keep doing the same thing at work all the time. I need change and challenge or my performance will slip and I'll start looking elsewhere...but, like I said, I can't imagine working anywhere else right now and I know I have a future there, I just have to bide my itme. Which leads me to the point I had in mind at the start of this paragraph, I'm in the process of learning to appreciate the present and not be distracted by visions of the future or visions of what the present ought to be.

So I've been enjoying my life a little more lately and I do that by mentally stepping back, taking a look at things and reminding myself, "I may not make a bunch of money but a lot of people dream of a life like mine." I'm cool, damnit! I've been chatting up my tables a little more lately because we're not so slammed and it makes me feel good to participate in their beach vacation joy. For a while there whenever I'd have an enthusiastic table I'd be annoyed and thinking, "Stupid fucking tourists." What a horrible attitude, but I couldn't shake it until recently. Maybe it's because we're less busy. I dunno.

I love to meet people and network. It's one of the main reasons I got into the bar/restaurant world. It's one of the main reasons I'm on SG and MySpace and Twitter and Last.fm and any other number of forums and social sites. I like to see what people are up to and I'm an exhibitionist and I just like getting out there and mixing it up. What's great about the net is that I can socialize without even having to talk to you fuckers...

Oops...was that out loud?

Heh.

Just some sponaneous Friday morning babble for ya.

Have a good weekend,
msi.