mysterious3rdguy

Today i broke down and cried, like lost control. I cant have it easy where only on thing happens to me. It always comes in 3's. 3 years ago my gf broke up with me, my grandmother died, and i had a friend killed by a drunk driver. This time its cancer reoccuring in my dad, my sister back on drugs causing my dad stress and ruining off with her ex crackhead bf, having to visit to my mom and listen to her just keep bombarding me with my sisters situation, and on another note i strained my shoulder which is causing me quite a bit of pain. I've always been the glue in my family and to others where ive been able to keep things together and get the situation to a better level. I've been this way since i was 16. So for 6 years i've been the glue. I'm afraid though now that i am starting to fall apart both mentally and pyschically. All this has really affected me before, but i've always just put up a shield. That shield is now crack and i just dont have the will power to fix it and put it up. Its been a difficult stretch in life as it always seems theres more bad than good lately, and any possiblity of good just goes horribly wrong. Almost like im set up to fail. Thats the way life is feeling to me. I just dont know anymore. The purpose of this is so whenever anyone tries to talk to me, they'll know why im in a shitty mood. sorry