I've been thinking a lot about this site, and how freaked I was at first, when my darling dear showed it to me, and then I found out he had joined and been here for a while already. I read neodrunk's post and wondered if his girlfriend was feeling the same way.
Jealousy is such crap, really. I mean, it's based in fear, it makes you feel like shit, it colors everything about your life, and makes you not sleep or eat correctly...
Basically, my goal is to accept myself, dig myself, love my man, feel at least neutral about everyone else...and not get so fucking wrapped up in worrying if I'm going to lose my love, or if he loves someone else. So fucking what if he did? If it happens it happens..worrying about it and trying to keep him from talking to people is not going to make it not happen. *sigh* wow. ok, done I don't know why the hell I needed to get that out today.
Jealousy is such crap, really. I mean, it's based in fear, it makes you feel like shit, it colors everything about your life, and makes you not sleep or eat correctly...
Basically, my goal is to accept myself, dig myself, love my man, feel at least neutral about everyone else...and not get so fucking wrapped up in worrying if I'm going to lose my love, or if he loves someone else. So fucking what if he did? If it happens it happens..worrying about it and trying to keep him from talking to people is not going to make it not happen. *sigh* wow. ok, done I don't know why the hell I needed to get that out today.
urblueygrl:
Yeah i like not being too jealous, it makes things so much easier. I dont mind what my man does on the computer. But if he was going to go meet girls in real life then i would have some issues. But i just know ive got a good guy and i dont have to worry and thats a good feeling. But sometimes i still feel alittle jealous but i think thats normal.
urblueygrl:
yeah i think my cousin looks up to me a bit, but i do think that she thinks im a bit too much of a good girl so it can be kinda hard sometimes. I keep hoping she will come visit me in california and see how far you can get in life if you try. Im doing travel nursing and she knows how much time i put toward school and how commited i was to it. I just want her to see all the good things that can come out of it.