I wish I could wrap my arms around the world and make the devastation go away. I wish I could scoop up babies without homes and hold them forever. I wish I could hold tight to man babies that forgot how to grow up and only grew (up), and teach them how to brush their womans hair. I wish I could make it stop spinning around and make everything all better.
In lieu of the catastrophe that has settled into Japan, is there anything that I can do to help? I have little to no resources, other than hours stolen at night and a small vegetable garden. My talents are scant, child-rearing and arguably writing fall into that category.
In other news, is there any other news?
My phone is dead and gone and I don't think I'll be getting a new one. Superficially, this is to keep me from becoming all to engrossed in the "ever connected' world, secretly it's to keep me from obsessing over, calling, texting, and crying about a certain someone that has left bruises on my life for three years. No phone and this someone could easily just disappear. Jude has been a ball of love and fuss, the terrible twos running through his little undeveloped psyche like a goddam freight train and causing near simultaneous outbursts of both beautiful and pure love and need, and then frustration and anger at my lack of understanding, my too little energy, less than ample response time. It leaves me feeling worn out and broke down, but full of more love and happiness than I have ever been aware that I could posses. Even with the love, though, the 24 hour shift of motherhood is taking a toll on my health. Or, even more frightening, another disease (most probably celiac spru, a wheat allergy that destroys the upper intestines and that my mother is plagued by) is taking control of my body. I keep losing weight, I have no energy, and I'm almost always starving. Oh vell. I will make a trek to the doctors one of these days and find out.
This tid bit from my life is turning out more pessimistic than intended. oh well, such is life.
In lieu of the catastrophe that has settled into Japan, is there anything that I can do to help? I have little to no resources, other than hours stolen at night and a small vegetable garden. My talents are scant, child-rearing and arguably writing fall into that category.
In other news, is there any other news?
My phone is dead and gone and I don't think I'll be getting a new one. Superficially, this is to keep me from becoming all to engrossed in the "ever connected' world, secretly it's to keep me from obsessing over, calling, texting, and crying about a certain someone that has left bruises on my life for three years. No phone and this someone could easily just disappear. Jude has been a ball of love and fuss, the terrible twos running through his little undeveloped psyche like a goddam freight train and causing near simultaneous outbursts of both beautiful and pure love and need, and then frustration and anger at my lack of understanding, my too little energy, less than ample response time. It leaves me feeling worn out and broke down, but full of more love and happiness than I have ever been aware that I could posses. Even with the love, though, the 24 hour shift of motherhood is taking a toll on my health. Or, even more frightening, another disease (most probably celiac spru, a wheat allergy that destroys the upper intestines and that my mother is plagued by) is taking control of my body. I keep losing weight, I have no energy, and I'm almost always starving. Oh vell. I will make a trek to the doctors one of these days and find out.
This tid bit from my life is turning out more pessimistic than intended. oh well, such is life.
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artificialjoy:
Guess who's moving to Florida 
artificialjoy:
Well if we can ever get the visa sorted out I'll be near Ft Myers.