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Thursday Sep 22, 2011

Sep 22, 2011
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Made a new friend last night. Well, we'd made friends online, but I hung out with her in person for the first time. Really cool chick. More of a crazy cat lady than I am. I had fun, but not enough to break the down cycle I'm in. I'm going to spoiler the whiny, emo crap for those who have no interest in reading another blog like that...

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

This round of cycling has been mostly depressive. Within 30 minutes of being away, I'm having anxiety related chest pains. My thoughts are confused. I say hurtful things, or my actions have hurtful consequences. I have random thoughts of self injury, which I NEVER have. I'm needy. I'm too impatient to wait until I can be helped with it, so I get angry about it. My gut instinct is to shut down and block everyone out, but I'm aware enough that I'll get what I need if I don't. The really strange part is that I'm most patient with the one person who causes me the most stress.
I told khoos that we need some us time tonight. No computers, no text messages, nothing. Let's see if that works. Hopefully the kids will actually go to bed on time tonight.



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canadian_coat:
It was weird man. I've worked and dealt with people that have had a wide range on mental illness, but that was just weird. At first I thought she was just trying to get me to lower the rate for her, but towards the end I wasn't sure.
Sep 22, 2011
idwraith:
I was worried about that, it's happened to some other people I know. Glad you guys are on top of it. Take care, you can call if you need me, you've got my number.
Sep 22, 2011

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