my3rdeye

OH! I meant to say thank you, too. *grumbles at herself* I'm so out of it today. eep.

I see how it seems I'm removed from the effect I have on the world around me. I understand, though, that everything we do, no matter how small, has an effect on others and our environment. And I am easily accused of acting before I think most days. I know that I live in the moment and for it with little planning for the future at all...and while it isn't always a good thing, it isn't always a bad thing either.

In the case of my post, I don't understand why I, personally, had such an effect. There are a lot of reasons behind my not understanding it and I'm sure you don't want to hear those, but I fail to see how anything I've done interacting with this person could cause such an intense and, in my opinion, slightly ridiculous reaction. The real problem the person has can likely be traced to other people (specifically girls) that he has talked to and I just happened to be the most recent female he had a conversation with.

Admittedly, when I posted that, I was rather angry and more than a little hurt at allegedly being the sole reason behind a suicide attempt. I don't know what I did to cause such a thing (and I've been looking for a reason) and it's not the first time someone has decided to lay all the blame at my feet for such a thing.

I'm not even sure why I'm telling you this or why I'm still typing