Is there anything left in this world
After all this continuous
Crashing, burning
I can't see our future anymore
And I'm starting to worry about you
Is there anything more to this scene
Than the always predictable
Lying, scheming
I can see your heart is in the air
And I'm starting to break away
So here's a bit of an update, as it's been a while since my last rambling session.
Why has it been a while? Well, because everything's been fine. Actually, things have been really great lately, and although they've been interrupted by M saying something that really scared me a couple times, it's been nothing to rant about or analyze on here.
There's almost no water pressure here, and so my skin has been getting really irritated by the lack of proper exfoliation. Even the exfoliating bar wasn't enough.
So I finally decided to get a loofah sponge. M seems to think that this may be a synthetic sponge, but I really doubt it. Besides, I seem to recall it saying something to the effect of "100% natural loofah sponge" right on the thing.
Anyway, I also got some body wash to go with it (same kind as the bar I was using before), and when I got it home, I happened to read the back of the container.
"Work into rich lather with pouf or washcloth."
I was on that for like 5 minutes. I had heard of a POOF (british for fruitcake?) before, but they call this cocking thing a "pouf". With a 'u', as if that's going to make it sound more elegant.
Why not just go for it and call it "le pouffe"? Fucking pussies!
Pouf.
Anyone reading this is probably like "Yeah ... so?" Oh well, forgive me for being ignorant of pouffage.
At least my skin is getting better now........
My sister has come back to stay with us, apparently, and I'm not sure what to make of her yet. Still too damned talkative about every little nothing you could imagine, and still doing stupid little kid shit. Projects, I guess they could be called. Besides, we have to have our bedrooms locked and we don't really know if she's genuine or not.
Bluuugh...
I also talked with FG recently (it had been quite a while since the last time), and he was filled in on the news around the lives of those involved at this new Embassy here (God, I REALLY need to get this shit going again...). And anyway, he gave me a couple books that I should get.
Let's see ... Howard Zinn "A People's History of the United States" and Thomas Woods, Jr "The Politically Incorrect Guide to American History"
You see, most people in the world tend to follow the political line of whoever has had the most influence on their opinions. Whatever makes the most sense to them matters more on which side of the argument they connect with first than it does on truly analyzing a given situation and looking for the TRUTH behind it.
I mean, everyone will SAY (and I believe think, as well) that they want to find the truth, but how many want to really step back and look at things in a more analytical way?
Well ... not many. Either they are just too busy to bother with it (a worthwhile excuse a lot of the time, actually), or else they just never LEARNED how to think CRITICALLY. That is actually an enormous problem here in the US, and likely in most other places as well. They should teach critical thinking, but they don't. Arguments could be generated on why this is so, but let's just suffice to say that the average person simply does not know how to question what they hear and look for the flaws in logic.
Most of those who decide that they don't want to follow the political line that they're fed end up, sadly, following a completely DIFFERENT line, but just a more underground one. And while doing this, they believe that they're thinking higher than the average person. And well, maybe they are, a little. But they're still following a line.
I have discovered that Ayn Rand is a line. Maybe not a media-driven mass consumption one, but it is still a line, with its own serious flaws if the reader were to take the implications of her words too seriously.
Again: good points; conclusions taken way to the other extreme in order to MAKE these points.
I'm generally conservative, but EVERY party/platform/programmed mindset/batch of kool-aid is wrong sometimes. The books I mentioned are broke up into sections of "reporting", or journal entries from people involved at the time, and then editorial, where the authors present a bit of a liberal bias in the first case, and a conservative bias in the second. I'll just have to sort the biases out and see what I really make of the information presented.
FG has always seemed to have a deeper knowledge of what REALLY happened in our history. Things that explain why Christopher Columbus was not anyone who should really be celebrated. I may disagree with FG's basic socialist outlook on the way the world should be run, but GIVEN that mindset, he is one of the most honest thinkers that I know.
And I aspire to be this way as well. How can you be honest with anyone else if you are unwilling to really unshield your own eyes? I don't want to be one of those people that follow the less popular line because it's better than the more obviously fucked-up line that the Hollywood dumbass celebrities would have us believe. Again, everyone might SAY this, but it really means something to me that I constantly strive to elevate myself from where I currently am.
This is also why I study creation science and the Hydroplate theory. Because I want to know the TRUTH. I don't care how established an idea is in the minds of people around me, if the idea is incorrect, then it is.
So many people are just really too afraid of the truth. They might have to change their stance on something if they are shown to be wrong. But hey ... that's how we grow and learn. I don't know why the human ego has to interfere so much with our development, but it's becoming more and more obvious to me that it simply is not going to change.
At least I can try...
And you can get an idea of some of the crap FG and I talk about, based on this rant I just presented to you here. All of what I said above might seem obvious, but the thing is, people just don't THINK about it. It's time we expected more of ourselves.
Planet Earth is under attack by the very species that claims superiority over all others on its surface. The geo-political climate is shifting in such a way as to almost guarantee the fall of the US as a major player in the long term.
But what are we all worried about? Whatever media frenzy comes our way next, that's what.
There will surely be another post coming really soon. I wanted to get this out there before it was lost in my mind. I am getting indications that M is really unsure of her ability to maintain any meaningful relationship. It sucks that I waited a while to post this positive note, because if it had been out there before, there would have been an almost complete absence of M contemplations.
But just to give an idea ... Saturday night at around 9:30. We were so great, and I was so glad to have her. Our meetings the past several times have been almost overwhelmingly positive, and this time especially was very welcomed as I knew that she was in a bit of an overly emotional place.
About an hour later, we had a discussion that was really weird to me at the time, and so it's not like I didn't notice the comments; we had a proper discussion.
It's just that it took until later before the true implications of that conversation hit me. I'm not going to rant on it now for the same reason that I didn't post on it yesterday. I don't want this to be a post that I make because I'm being anxious about something. It needs to set in a little better first.
I've gotten this one out there, so I'll probably do it tomorrow. I don't know.
Perhaps I shouldn't have even said this much. I wanted an all-positive post out there; something that would be like a break from other bullshit. The reason for my lapse hasn't been because I started using the book to write it all in; it truly is that every time I would get freaked because of something she said, she would end up resolving it through an admittedly overly extended conversation. And the meetings were just awesome.
But I'm still ... really not sure what to make of this one.
-MXV
After all this continuous
Crashing, burning
I can't see our future anymore
And I'm starting to worry about you
Is there anything more to this scene
Than the always predictable
Lying, scheming
I can see your heart is in the air
And I'm starting to break away
So here's a bit of an update, as it's been a while since my last rambling session.
Why has it been a while? Well, because everything's been fine. Actually, things have been really great lately, and although they've been interrupted by M saying something that really scared me a couple times, it's been nothing to rant about or analyze on here.
There's almost no water pressure here, and so my skin has been getting really irritated by the lack of proper exfoliation. Even the exfoliating bar wasn't enough.
So I finally decided to get a loofah sponge. M seems to think that this may be a synthetic sponge, but I really doubt it. Besides, I seem to recall it saying something to the effect of "100% natural loofah sponge" right on the thing.
Anyway, I also got some body wash to go with it (same kind as the bar I was using before), and when I got it home, I happened to read the back of the container.
"Work into rich lather with pouf or washcloth."
I was on that for like 5 minutes. I had heard of a POOF (british for fruitcake?) before, but they call this cocking thing a "pouf". With a 'u', as if that's going to make it sound more elegant.
Why not just go for it and call it "le pouffe"? Fucking pussies!
Pouf.
Anyone reading this is probably like "Yeah ... so?" Oh well, forgive me for being ignorant of pouffage.
At least my skin is getting better now........
My sister has come back to stay with us, apparently, and I'm not sure what to make of her yet. Still too damned talkative about every little nothing you could imagine, and still doing stupid little kid shit. Projects, I guess they could be called. Besides, we have to have our bedrooms locked and we don't really know if she's genuine or not.
Bluuugh...
I also talked with FG recently (it had been quite a while since the last time), and he was filled in on the news around the lives of those involved at this new Embassy here (God, I REALLY need to get this shit going again...). And anyway, he gave me a couple books that I should get.
Let's see ... Howard Zinn "A People's History of the United States" and Thomas Woods, Jr "The Politically Incorrect Guide to American History"
You see, most people in the world tend to follow the political line of whoever has had the most influence on their opinions. Whatever makes the most sense to them matters more on which side of the argument they connect with first than it does on truly analyzing a given situation and looking for the TRUTH behind it.
I mean, everyone will SAY (and I believe think, as well) that they want to find the truth, but how many want to really step back and look at things in a more analytical way?
Well ... not many. Either they are just too busy to bother with it (a worthwhile excuse a lot of the time, actually), or else they just never LEARNED how to think CRITICALLY. That is actually an enormous problem here in the US, and likely in most other places as well. They should teach critical thinking, but they don't. Arguments could be generated on why this is so, but let's just suffice to say that the average person simply does not know how to question what they hear and look for the flaws in logic.
Most of those who decide that they don't want to follow the political line that they're fed end up, sadly, following a completely DIFFERENT line, but just a more underground one. And while doing this, they believe that they're thinking higher than the average person. And well, maybe they are, a little. But they're still following a line.
I have discovered that Ayn Rand is a line. Maybe not a media-driven mass consumption one, but it is still a line, with its own serious flaws if the reader were to take the implications of her words too seriously.
Again: good points; conclusions taken way to the other extreme in order to MAKE these points.
I'm generally conservative, but EVERY party/platform/programmed mindset/batch of kool-aid is wrong sometimes. The books I mentioned are broke up into sections of "reporting", or journal entries from people involved at the time, and then editorial, where the authors present a bit of a liberal bias in the first case, and a conservative bias in the second. I'll just have to sort the biases out and see what I really make of the information presented.
FG has always seemed to have a deeper knowledge of what REALLY happened in our history. Things that explain why Christopher Columbus was not anyone who should really be celebrated. I may disagree with FG's basic socialist outlook on the way the world should be run, but GIVEN that mindset, he is one of the most honest thinkers that I know.
And I aspire to be this way as well. How can you be honest with anyone else if you are unwilling to really unshield your own eyes? I don't want to be one of those people that follow the less popular line because it's better than the more obviously fucked-up line that the Hollywood dumbass celebrities would have us believe. Again, everyone might SAY this, but it really means something to me that I constantly strive to elevate myself from where I currently am.
This is also why I study creation science and the Hydroplate theory. Because I want to know the TRUTH. I don't care how established an idea is in the minds of people around me, if the idea is incorrect, then it is.
So many people are just really too afraid of the truth. They might have to change their stance on something if they are shown to be wrong. But hey ... that's how we grow and learn. I don't know why the human ego has to interfere so much with our development, but it's becoming more and more obvious to me that it simply is not going to change.
At least I can try...
And you can get an idea of some of the crap FG and I talk about, based on this rant I just presented to you here. All of what I said above might seem obvious, but the thing is, people just don't THINK about it. It's time we expected more of ourselves.
Planet Earth is under attack by the very species that claims superiority over all others on its surface. The geo-political climate is shifting in such a way as to almost guarantee the fall of the US as a major player in the long term.
But what are we all worried about? Whatever media frenzy comes our way next, that's what.
There will surely be another post coming really soon. I wanted to get this out there before it was lost in my mind. I am getting indications that M is really unsure of her ability to maintain any meaningful relationship. It sucks that I waited a while to post this positive note, because if it had been out there before, there would have been an almost complete absence of M contemplations.
But just to give an idea ... Saturday night at around 9:30. We were so great, and I was so glad to have her. Our meetings the past several times have been almost overwhelmingly positive, and this time especially was very welcomed as I knew that she was in a bit of an overly emotional place.
About an hour later, we had a discussion that was really weird to me at the time, and so it's not like I didn't notice the comments; we had a proper discussion.
It's just that it took until later before the true implications of that conversation hit me. I'm not going to rant on it now for the same reason that I didn't post on it yesterday. I don't want this to be a post that I make because I'm being anxious about something. It needs to set in a little better first.
I've gotten this one out there, so I'll probably do it tomorrow. I don't know.
Perhaps I shouldn't have even said this much. I wanted an all-positive post out there; something that would be like a break from other bullshit. The reason for my lapse hasn't been because I started using the book to write it all in; it truly is that every time I would get freaked because of something she said, she would end up resolving it through an admittedly overly extended conversation. And the meetings were just awesome.
But I'm still ... really not sure what to make of this one.
-MXV