Sigh. Beating myself really doesn't solve anything but it always just seems so right. Techincally I'm really just creating a vicious circle for myself. I fuck up in life and then I punish myself with massive mental anguish. Then I do the same fuck up again. Why? Because I created some type of balanced system where I get some adequate form of discipline counter to whatever it is I did or didn't do.
I vent a lot on these blogs. Sometimes the feeling lasts no longer than it takes to post. Sometimes it lasts a couple days. I'm not as good at changing my mind as I used to be. But then again I'm better at other things than I used to be. It all seems to balance out to some point.
I vent a lot on these blogs. Sometimes the feeling lasts no longer than it takes to post. Sometimes it lasts a couple days. I'm not as good at changing my mind as I used to be. But then again I'm better at other things than I used to be. It all seems to balance out to some point.