musim

Man people piss me off. Its amazing how living in your own microcosm composed of your own friends can give you such a happy outlook on life. And then you go and talk to someone you stopped talking to. And then you remember why you stopped talking to them. That unwillingness to argue. You know what I do with those people? I push hard. Its bad. I'll start making loaded statements about fucked things just to see if they are ever going to get the spine to stand up to me.

Scenes and clicks piss me off. I use the word scene a lot and I wish I had replacement verbage for it. Because I think its a very insulting terms. Its amazing how people won't enter a room with someone else because of something they said. You're at a bar and someone you don't get along with walks in. Why care? If they start bugging you, worry about it then. And if they do then obviously there is something they like about you whether they want to admit it to themselves or not. Maybe they like that they can hate you so easily. That is entirely possible. Some people love their enemies. I don't know why, they just do. Either way this kind of absurdity, this narcisstic bubble hurts anything we might acheive as a group. Oh what's that? You don't want to be a part of their group? Are any of your friends friends with them or theirs? Cause that kind of makes you part of their group. Its a very simple concept. Several groups of people like the same thing to such an extent they'd like it to thrive where they live. So they can either make it work or not set foot in the same room with each other because they dated the same person or some other childish bullshit.

I'm just involved in this level of childishness or gossip so little present day that it really pisses me the fuck off when it happens. I really wish the apocalypse would hurry up and get here and wipe out the majority of the earth's populace. I saw a comic say recently "If you're depressed that means you're awake". I can't agree more. I'm happiest in my little microcosm of friends and family. Supporting them and hanging out with them is what makes life worth living for me. I distance myself from mentally fucked people. I can talk to them, be at parties or bars they're at, but that doesn't mean I have to hang out with them any other time. I don't need that kind of bullshit on a weekly basis.

Course the worst part about it all, if you want to make it as an artist, you have to get these people with you. Cause they're the majority of the fucking world.