muse_malade

Work was tense. I don't care. I got a phone call from my brother, the reason I DON'T do drugs. A poster child for crack abuse. If I haven't said before, I really don't talk to my family. My mom lives in VA and my dad and brother live in the same town. They don't call, well my parents don't call.
So, he calls and...
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Bad night. I went out for coffee with this girl. We've been trying to be friends for some time. We have a lot in common. It turns out the reason she calls me out for coffee is to tell me she and my ex have something going on and the reason she's been dodging our friendship is she's interested in him and would I feel...
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It's been a while since I updated. There have been so many changes lately. I ended up a catholic mass last night. Just kind of by mistake. A friend and I were out taking pictures and there was a church we wanted to go to, so they had mass and we were in these doors watching. The whole purpose of going in was to see...
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Why do people feel the need tp mess with you? Can't they take the hint and see it's over? Do I hav eto CRUEL to get want I want? All I want is to be left alone, forget my number. Forgetyou know me. You weren't that important.

Everything has just been blah lately. Just everything has gone to shit. I am trying to keep positive about it. I found out I need to move in August. No big deal because I have 7 months to save the money and so on, it's just I am really confortable here. Work sucks. Pissy little kids that don't realize life does not HAVE TO BE...
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It was a beautiful day, I went on a walk and ordered the textbooks online for the classes I would of been taking this semester. I'll just keep studing and test out of those classes.
Keep focusing on the big picture. I can't fuck up now, I've come too far.
I am going to read Lolita next. I feel the need to be lost is...
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My friend Tracey (best friend who I am so often speaking about) is very sick right now and passed out on my couch. All I can do for her is rub her back when she throws up. Apparently, she did not realize what would happen if you mix pizza, alcohol and pain killers ( for the root canal) together.
I feel kind of helpless.... This...
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So, it's all finished and I hope there is not another phone call. I don't want to have to change my number. Too much drama.

My friend lost a filling in her tooth and normally I don't take drugs but when there is vicodin involved, I put out my little hand and say 'yes, please'.
I haven't taken any in about a year and I...
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Ah, the weekend. Something in my room is making really fucked up noises and I can't figure out what it is. It kind of reminds me of Atari video games. It's just very random.
Tommorrow is filled with flea markets and wandering. Too much bullshit this week. *sigh*
My phone is off and I am not answering the door. Tonight I am alone and that...
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Ah, the year is over. So many things to do. A ton of books I reading one which is really short, Memories of My Melancholy Whores. I just started it. I'll be done tomorrow. Has anyone read it? Also, I'm reading a collect of Guy de Maupassant's stories.
I'm getting restless and winter hasn't even set in yet.
I'm supposed to go see Chronicles of...
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