Ok so its the most HATED DAY OF THE FUCKIN WEEK and guess what? Give up? Ok...............I'll tell ya. I STILL FUCKING HATE LIFE and I STILL want to just roll over and DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still feel that my wife & daughter will be MUCH better off without me and that all I am to the few friends that I have is a nucience and a royal PAIN IN THE ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I am SO SORRY to my few close friends ( you know who you are) I just want you all to be happy and not have to put up with me being such a fucking pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so sorry to my family, friends and anyone else who may feel a need to feel bad for my worthless FAT ASS!!!! I am SUCH A LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I STILL just want to die.................................... 
I am SO SORRY to my few close friends ( you know who you are) I just want you all to be happy and not have to put up with me being such a fucking pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so sorry to my family, friends and anyone else who may feel a need to feel bad for my worthless FAT ASS!!!! I am SUCH A LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I STILL just want to die.................................... 
murf9980:
I won't respond with any excuses, And if you or anyone else thinks that I have not been trying to move forward and be sure my daughter is taken care of than you all are sadly mistaken. Its when I try my FUCK WELL BEST to take care of my daughter and everything fails and backfires is when I start feeling "sorry for myself" as you put it. But i think that you fail to realize that the reason I am so frickin depressed is because no matter what I try to do it always seems to fail and my daughter SUFFERS!! So If I get depressed because I feel that I am not able to provide for my daughter, I fail to see how this is me thinking about myself 
When ALL I want is whats best for my daughter!! And what if whats best for her is to be out of her life???????? How do I know????? I don't make excuses, I don't make up stories, I just want ANSWERS DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask????????? i don't think so.......................
When ALL I want is whats best for my daughter!! And what if whats best for her is to be out of her life???????? How do I know????? I don't make excuses, I don't make up stories, I just want ANSWERS DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask????????? i don't think so.......................