FEB 22, 2008 11:59 AM
Hey All, (especially Tues)
I appreciate your concern, really I do.
But 2 things you are missing, I am so BROKE right now I can't even pay attention!! And because the "state says" we make too much money we cannot get any kind of aid. INCLUDING medical help!!! I find it funny that a budget counsler says that we are...
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Hey All, (especially Tues)
I appreciate your concern, really I do.
But 2 things you are missing, I am so BROKE right now I can't even pay attention!! And because the "state says" we make too much money we cannot get any kind of aid. INCLUDING medical help!!! I find it funny that a budget counsler says that we are...
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I won't respond with any excuses, And if you or anyone else thinks that I have not been trying to move forward and be sure my daughter is taken care of than you all are sadly mistaken. Its when I try my FUCK WELL BEST to take care of my daughter and everything fails and backfires is when I start feeling "sorry for myself" as...
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murf9980:
Hey you,
I appreciate your concern, really I do.
But 2 things you are missing, I am so BROKE right now I can't even pay attention!! And because the "state says" we make too much money we cannot get any kind of aid. INCLUDING medical help!!! I find it funny that a budget counsler says that we are negitive 8 - 900.00 a month because of the outstanding bills/payments we have and "the state" says we make too much money????? Its LAUGHABLE!!!! So you see, I have to face this alone, Lynn is no help, Tara is no help, I just have to tough it out and do what I can to get myself and my family through this crisis. I have handled stress before, I have even considered suicide before, but I have always been able to tap an inner strength to pull myself through. Its just taking a "little" longer this time because it not only affects me, Cause if it was just me I would have been dead long ago, Its taking longer to tap my inner strength now because its my family that is suffering and I feel powerless to do anything to fix it!!! And THAT my dear is what is causing my depression NOT thinking of myself but of those that depend on me an those that I let down. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I just plug along, try my best, FAIL time & time again and be depressed..........SEE, thats how it works...............
love you though babe,
I appreciate your concern, really I do.
But 2 things you are missing, I am so BROKE right now I can't even pay attention!! And because the "state says" we make too much money we cannot get any kind of aid. INCLUDING medical help!!! I find it funny that a budget counsler says that we are negitive 8 - 900.00 a month because of the outstanding bills/payments we have and "the state" says we make too much money????? Its LAUGHABLE!!!! So you see, I have to face this alone, Lynn is no help, Tara is no help, I just have to tough it out and do what I can to get myself and my family through this crisis. I have handled stress before, I have even considered suicide before, but I have always been able to tap an inner strength to pull myself through. Its just taking a "little" longer this time because it not only affects me, Cause if it was just me I would have been dead long ago, Its taking longer to tap my inner strength now because its my family that is suffering and I feel powerless to do anything to fix it!!! And THAT my dear is what is causing my depression NOT thinking of myself but of those that depend on me an those that I let down. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I just plug along, try my best, FAIL time & time again and be depressed..........SEE, thats how it works...............
love you though babe,
Ok so its the most HATED DAY OF THE FUCKIN WEEK and guess what? Give up? Ok...............I'll tell ya. I STILL FUCKING HATE LIFE and I STILL want to just roll over and DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still feel that my wife & daughter will be MUCH better off without me and that all I am to the few friends that I have is a nucience and...
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murf9980:
I won't respond with any excuses, And if you or anyone else thinks that I have not been trying to move forward and be sure my daughter is taken care of than you all are sadly mistaken. Its when I try my FUCK WELL BEST to take care of my daughter and everything fails and backfires is when I start feeling "sorry for myself" as you put it. But i think that you fail to realize that the reason I am so frickin depressed is because no matter what I try to do it always seems to fail and my daughter SUFFERS!! So If I get depressed because I feel that I am not able to provide for my daughter, I fail to see how this is me thinking about myself 
When ALL I want is whats best for my daughter!! And what if whats best for her is to be out of her life???????? How do I know????? I don't make excuses, I don't make up stories, I just want ANSWERS DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask????????? i don't think so.......................
When ALL I want is whats best for my daughter!! And what if whats best for her is to be out of her life???????? How do I know????? I don't make excuses, I don't make up stories, I just want ANSWERS DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask????????? i don't think so.......................hello any and all that may be interested in my feeble minded rantings....................
Well today was 1 of the saddest days of my life. We started packing to move, Don't know where we are going yet but I hope & pray something will come along and I REALLY hope that we get moved BEFORE my sugery next month. I had to sit & watch my...
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Well today was 1 of the saddest days of my life. We started packing to move, Don't know where we are going yet but I hope & pray something will come along and I REALLY hope that we get moved BEFORE my sugery next month. I had to sit & watch my...
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Ok,
So now that my depressed day is over, I move on..............................Oh mind you I STILL hate life, But I doubt I can go ahead with putting my family through my doing myself in, that would be just 1 more thing for them to be disappointed in me and my DUMB ASS!!!!!!!!!! Lord knows I put them through enough hell as it is, I can't...
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So now that my depressed day is over, I move on..............................Oh mind you I STILL hate life, But I doubt I can go ahead with putting my family through my doing myself in, that would be just 1 more thing for them to be disappointed in me and my DUMB ASS!!!!!!!!!! Lord knows I put them through enough hell as it is, I can't...
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ok, So here is the ranting and ravings of me being depressed...................................
I injured myself back in Aug. 2007 to the point that I cannot work at this time.
Due to that injury, I am undergoing surgery in March to correct the problem.
Also due to that injury, We have been unable to pay our mortgage payment and now have to move out of the...
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I injured myself back in Aug. 2007 to the point that I cannot work at this time.
Due to that injury, I am undergoing surgery in March to correct the problem.
Also due to that injury, We have been unable to pay our mortgage payment and now have to move out of the...
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Ok, So heres the deal,
I FINALLY got around to putting up a profile and a picture. YAAAAAAAAAA, And I figured out how to do it all by myself!!!!! So I hope that anyone that may read this is very proud!!!!
I FINALLY got around to putting up a profile and a picture. YAAAAAAAAAA, And I figured out how to do it all by myself!!!!! So I hope that anyone that may read this is very proud!!!!
OK, so here is the latest........................
Have ya ever felt that your life has NO MEANING?? Or that the reason that you were at a job was not the money, or benefits or the long term job security, That the only reason you were there was because the people you worked with were AWESOME!!!!! (well except for 1) And now, you are not there anymore...
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Have ya ever felt that your life has NO MEANING?? Or that the reason that you were at a job was not the money, or benefits or the long term job security, That the only reason you were there was because the people you worked with were AWESOME!!!!! (well except for 1) And now, you are not there anymore...
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HELLO,
OK, So today REALLY SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!! It started yesterday when a co-worker that I REALLY THOUGHT was COOL, just told an OUT & OUT LIE and I got my ass in a sling because of it!!!!!!! And then to continues today, a so -called- "friend" Told another friend a bunch of BULLSHIT that I said that I NEVER FRIKIN SAID!!!!!!!!!!! So needless to say, when...
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OK, So today REALLY SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!! It started yesterday when a co-worker that I REALLY THOUGHT was COOL, just told an OUT & OUT LIE and I got my ass in a sling because of it!!!!!!! And then to continues today, a so -called- "friend" Told another friend a bunch of BULLSHIT that I said that I NEVER FRIKIN SAID!!!!!!!!!!! So needless to say, when...
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OK,
So I have to update cause everyone BITCHES cause I don't update enough.
So here goes..........................
Thanksgiving SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I had to help clear out Dad's things. And Deerhunting SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I STILL had to help clear out Dad"s things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And my life still SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I am STILL LOST without Dad!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss him so FUCKIN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, So EVERYONE QUIT...
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So I have to update cause everyone BITCHES cause I don't update enough.
So here goes..........................
Thanksgiving SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I had to help clear out Dad's things. And Deerhunting SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I STILL had to help clear out Dad"s things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And my life still SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I am STILL LOST without Dad!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss him so FUCKIN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, So EVERYONE QUIT...
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OK,
So being as I have SOME PEOPLE that say I never update. AND the reason I don't is because some of us actually have to WORK FOR A LIVING!!!!!!!! And don't have the TIME TO SIT ON THE PC!!!!!!!!! "Just kidding love"
So here is my update boring as it may be. Life STILL SUCKS!!!!!! I have NO FRICKIN TIME to spend with my...
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So being as I have SOME PEOPLE that say I never update. AND the reason I don't is because some of us actually have to WORK FOR A LIVING!!!!!!!! And don't have the TIME TO SIT ON THE PC!!!!!!!!! "Just kidding love"
So here is my update boring as it may be. Life STILL SUCKS!!!!!! I have NO FRICKIN TIME to spend with my...
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nexttuesday:
good boy 
life will get better and you know it.
otherwise you and me will just wallow in misery together. come on itll be fuuuuun!
life will get better and you know it.
otherwise you and me will just wallow in misery together. come on itll be fuuuuun!
daleyy:
ya dont say it to me eathier cause i take it its not a good thing!!!! love ya murf adn i really hope all starts to go well for you and soon<333 and ya im with tues you should up date more
Ok, So here is my first blog.
I am just sitting here drinking a clod beer & wishing I was some fucking place else. Where, I don't know, Someplace, ANYPLACE Else but where I am. I HATE life I HATE "So called love" And I just want to LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP THE PLANET, I WANT OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am just sitting here drinking a clod beer & wishing I was some fucking place else. Where, I don't know, Someplace, ANYPLACE Else but where I am. I HATE life I HATE "So called love" And I just want to LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP THE PLANET, I WANT OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nexttuesday:
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU LEARNED HOW TO POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*passes the fuck out*
Hey Babe, you dont want off the planet. You wouldnt get the pleasure of dealing with me on a daily basis then. What fun would that be????
YOU LEARNED HOW TO POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*passes the fuck out*
Hey Babe, you dont want off the planet. You wouldnt get the pleasure of dealing with me on a daily basis then. What fun would that be????
nexttuesday:
you never update
jeeeeeeez
jeeeeeeez