murderthisghost

For those of you that don't know, or even care, I recently went through a pretty rough spot with a girl that pretty much used me for emotional support while she fucked other people...long story short, she lied about everything, from the time she got off of work, to what her parents did for a living, to saying that she loved me....all lies...but my problem is that for some reason i can't let go...i ended it, i went to her place got all of my stuff and left, and cut off all communication, but still every day is a battle with myself not to call or text...i hurt just thinking about all of the effort that was made, and how much i smiled, even though i know that none of it from her was real at all....i'm trying to be happy, its just difficult.....its not even about physical needs, or anything of that nature....i miss that emotional bond that i thought we had, i miss trading books and discussing them when we were finished, i missed watching indie movies, and making fun of how lame they were, i miss sending our Song of the Day texts.....luckily for me, im vengeful, and i already have evil plans in the works....it should be fun......................i'm going to try to do my song of the day with my blogs, but i can't promise to do it every day, but here's the first, and i'll post the lyrics also........Butch Walker's "The Best Thing You Never Had"

Hello how you doing?
What's it like to ruin all my self esteem
Let me blow off some steam
For 5 years I've waited,
So why am I jaded to get back at you
What makes it cool

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

And it seems like a loss somehow
My heart got lost on the way to my head
And my brain cells are dead
And the craziness shows
Now I start to go when the green turns to red
And I should be dead

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
While my heart got shattered like romantic roadkill
My heart is all splattered your ego got fatter
And I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

Like the toilet seat never got lifted
And I pissed on your confidence
When you weren't around, how can that be?
Don't turn this around
You were the one
Who drove my ass right to the ground

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad, and I can't like

Someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
While my heart got shattered like romantic roadkill
My heart is all splattered your ego got fatter
And I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
You broke this down
The best thing, the best thing,
The best thing that you never had

You never had...