muppetchrist

I cut off dating. I took my own advice. I haven't met anyone in California that interests me enough to explore the possibility of serious dating, though that's what they're hoping for from me. It'd be nice to have... I don't know... something more than booty call but less than a girlfriend? You take for granted little things, then when they're gone, that gap slaps you hard. I don't have a support network of friends and family to fall back on out here. There's nobody to hug, nobody to offer up love and affection. I'm trudging along with A's ghost on my back, and I'm doing it completely alone. The experience is teaching me so much about myself. Once I come out the other side of this, I'm going to be a changed man, for the much better. It's hard to think about that now, though. Now, all I want is someone to be on my couch and snuggle.